te amo

back yet again..

2010-04-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

This is long, kinda very very long since i'm back blogging again. Recollection of last post - way back at 2008. =| too much things happened these 2 years. was busy with stuffs, catching back what's lost from outside world during army, etc..

Practically in year 2009, i was still in the army. Overseas and local exercises packed up my life - it simply means NO LIFE! all ya can have was just training, more training and alot more training. things went smooth at the last few months of 2009 as I ORD ON DECEMBER! greastest gift to receive which marks the end of ya confinement, ya torture and of course its FREEDOM again. But for that ya gotta pay a price - there goes my 'iron bowl'. During the 2 years of NS life, pay was a definite every month, ya are well-fed, provided with lodging and trainings thus if ya are gonna ORD it simply mean ya shall be thrown back to the reality again. Ya have to look for a job. Ya are gonna earn a living urself. Ya are totally exposed to the world unlike the 2 years which ya are well-protected by the government. I didn't manage to get quite a rest after ORD, went straight for interviews, job applications. Started work almost right after ORD, around 10 days later.

Now almost the 5th month since i'm on the job. time flies. i missed the past when i have nothing to worry much. enjoyed going for lessons with friends. k-box, pooling or shoppings after lessons. thats was ultimately the best ever. missed my friends. nevertheless life means to move on. everyone does so do i. friends are always around, just a simple message and we could hang out again though it could not have been like before. And nowadays theres FaceBook, Twitters, Hi-5. all there to connect to everyone so no worries on losing or missing anyone out from my life.

Last but not least, these 2 years i had someone always by my side - my fiancee. She supports me suffered my outrageous attitude and temper and never left me once. we are together for 24mths & 25days. I guess i couldn't have find another sucha loving and caring fiancee. though she have some sort of intolerable habits and attitudes but well i will always love her.

With this post, i shall mark my return and too will return frequently for new updates. Cheerios~

photo whorin....

2008-09-16T23:48:00.010+08:00

just went to collect our rings today... glad to see that there's no damage on the rings otherwise we would have to wait for another collection date.

lalala love song...
To heart~!

isnt it nice? kekeke....anyway there is some other photos that we took on our way back home... interesting...

loads of self-photo-whoring.... who's uglier? who's more kuso? haha....

lets see some signs....

found these signs. interesting huh? "DO NOT FEED THE MONKEYS" - my friendster primary photo.. hahaha... the other " THANK YOU PLEASE COME AGAIN" - i'm gonna put it in my blog after i change the skin.... kekeke

hmmm thats it for now, more will come in near future posts.....

THATS IT, FOLKS!!~

back.....

2008-09-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

kinda guilty to all readers that my last published post was WAY WAY WAY back in APRIL 11...

forgive me for i have sinned.... jesus just did, thus i believe everyone will.... =p

for now i shall get back into bloggin again. seems a very good news to all... especially someone who even pester me while i sleeping.....(ya know that i'm referring to ya - wife)

this is merely introduction or a fresh new greetings to everyone on my comeback... things will get interesting from next post onwards...

STAY TUNE, DOC!!!

punk photoshoot cum bear family outin.

2008-04-11T01:28:00.004+08:00

photoshoot cum outin on 5th which was last Saturday. sorri that it took me so long to post about it and the photos as well. i have not been online recently. well photos shall says the rest now.. enjoysss
P.S. our theme was PUNK!

make-up preparation before shooting..

PUNK-ed UPs~

yukis'[yuki_loli,yuki_shermaine]

rock on!! [misha<3, xeths]

halloween wiz[eden]

romancese~ endless love~

witches in action.

fallin apart..

candies devil.

awaitin~

leads me on..

just me & you..

closeup on Eden

let it flow in us..

i do, i do~

closeup on yuki_loli

there's more photos, will try to upload them again as im still searchin for them.
ciaosx

pics...whoowhoo

2008-04-06T22:59:00.003+08:00

pics from chalet. finally updatin them now. wakakaka...

back in action~~

2008-03-31T13:38:00.002+08:00

heyo... back from chalet just this morning. hmmmm birthday chalet for EDEN[yaoi partner] and MISHA[honey]. hmmm we have formed the BEAR FAMILY!! lotsa happened at chalet. pictures shall do the explanations but still waiting for RADIOKON [Photographer] to send me the photos to edit before posting up. hopefully the next post shall be up with the photos.
*Rolls*

accidentally in love

2008-03-18T21:21:00.006+08:00

yea..seems like i'm falling in love again, or in fact to say i actually did.

i'm clueless on expressing the feelings in words.

only this statement says it all --> Nagareru hoshi ni negai o sotto tsubuyaku, "Kimi to isshoni iraremasu youni...." aishiteru

MISHA:kimochi ga tsuyoku naru to fuan no kazumo fuete yuku kara, ichido dakishimeta kokoro ha donna toki mo hanasanai de. mirai mo kimi mo dakishimeru to kono yozora ni chigau. aishiteru...

lets await ya birthday. 10 days 1 hour 38 minutes 30 seconds. PREZZIES for ya soon.

worries cleared...

2008-03-16T20:16:00.002+08:00

suppose to have posted the day before but the damn shit webby just ruined everything... grrrr!! i typed such a long post yet the whole page of it just refreshed and gone with the wind. =( thus i was pretty irritated and annoyed to re-post again, now my mood is back so i will just try to update again.

hmmm went NUH again last friday as the pain on my right shoulder was too tremendous, it was getting unbearable after the MRI scan which i did on tuesday. was pretty afraid it might be a bone infection as the doc said it might happen. now i shall recount back to tuesday on the process of MRI scan.

it was the day of truth & "death". i was so afraid i might have to go through any surgery. right before the MRI scan, there's this process where ya have to go for the injections and flowing fluid into the bone. i was shivering throughout process. =X
i mean seeing the docs getting all kind of sizes of syringes plus preparing the medications omg. on the flowing of fluid into bone, the doc told me he cant find my shoulder joint!! it was like HUR, and WTF!! sucha tense moment and ya are scaring me with this. *faints* luckily he found it in the end and he added, " ya have a tricky joint." ---> -.-! after it shall be the MRI scan. its just a resting period of 20mins in the machine. was relaxing though kekeke.

day by day after the MRI scan, the level of pain just keep inccreasing. it was only on friday that i decided i should go back to NUH to clear my doubt. its better to be safe than nothing. it was the shortest wait i ever had as they quickly directed me to a physician as it could be a severe case => bone infection. to my surprise, i'm fine.
they told me my MRI scan result shows i'm normal. WHEEEE!!! but still i was given stacks of painkillers again. i'm just feeding on painkillers everyday. now left will be the specialist appointment on the coming tuesday. he shall clear my doubt on what causes the pain on my shoulder.

with everything fine now, i can do everything. playing piano & violin. my right arm would be back to functioning again. =)

P.S.: sorry to have made many worried. now everyone can have a relief in their mind. i'm fine now and reali thanks for the concern and care given. arigatou gozaimasu~

lowest point of my life

2008-03-03T02:37:00.002+08:00

haven been updatin bloggie. its almost 2 mths. well army days are certainly packed and busy, it just dont allow me to have time for even updates.

i gotten myslef injured....once again. i almost kept it from everyone except family or some just to not make them worry. i have been a worry to everyone as i'm unable to really prevent from getting any form of injuries or illness, not to mention that i'm a baller(basketball is one of the injury-prone sports). this time i injured during training. specialist suspected it could be a tear ligament or muscle.

seriously since i gotten injured, i have not been able to be myself. i'm just so stressed up. no encouragements, no helps, no one to turn to. i could only depend on myself. and with this it could mean i might not be able to play basketball. its such sour feeling to not being able to do anything. i wonder how long would this still goes on but one thing for sure - i'm breaking down soon. the usual standin tall and dependable alex shall be gone.... time for me to take a break. i just needed someone to depend on.

xinyi... ya are not nothing but everything to me. trust me ya can never sucks when ya are far more better than me in every areas. just like ya said once, "you will always be someone special to me." it applies to ya too and its from me to ya. i will still need ya to hold me up and let me depend on at this period of time. my ugliest and worst moment of my life.

back for life.

2008-01-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging though i had been out since tuesday night. hmmm later i would be booking in again. and after this book in, i will only be out 2 weeks later. lol. i gladly hope that everyone PLEASE DO NOT MISS ME!!! lol i bet i'm just being too self-centered. glad that i have spend these few days quite meaningfully though there were still some that i haven gotten the chance to meet and somethings that have not accomplished.
1)jolynn - sorri that i haven fulfilled the date to watch the movie with ya. i hope ya are not angry about it. i will try to make it up for it. =)
2)Xinyi - haven been able to meet ya for even a simpe MacDonalds' breakfast. sorry about it, please do empty out ya weekends on 26th & 27th. i will make my weekend free too. hugs.
3)yingying - till now we still haven gotten the chance to meet. mainly because ya are busy with ya work and me tired plus busy with some other meetings. i will TRRRYYY MY VERY BEST to arrange it with ya. remember to work hard for our future. lol

well i shall end here then, gotta go for dinner and get ready to book in later. i will blog again on the next book out.

1st post of 2008

2008-01-01T11:08:00.000+08:00

i shall let this post begins my new year. happy new year all.

looking back at my previous post and my past, indeed i have changed? i certainly agrees to it. i really changed. i couldnt list out my changes, maybe ya guys could do it for me? =P this morning i called my friend, she changed no. thus i didnt know it was her till the call got through. she was rather surprise and shock. she couldnt even recognise my voice omg. she was saying "it just dont sound like ya at all." -.-! wondering what more could have popped out from her when she meets me.

i have put down my feelings for her. this time its for real though previously i have been saying it tons of times. its impossible to get back together again. it shall be a part of my memories. finally i put down this burden in my heart, my very 1st accomplishment of the year. lol. there are lots that i would wanna blog about but i cant. its a breach of agreement. sorry guys i shall update more upon my next book out. =)

regrets...maybe not.

2007-12-31T17:42:00.000+08:00

in less than 8 hours, a new year will begins and too it marks the end of 2007. Year 2007 was pretty much better than 2006 but i wouldnt stop agreein that it could have been much more better. Thus, i have whole list of new year resolutions.

- save up more $$$
- try to salvage whatever i have lost [eg. relationships, things, etc.]
- give happiness and not sorrows to everyone
- wishes everyone healthy and prospect in everything
- opening up myself?
- continues my world of freedom

i guess everyone would have their own resolutions too. Good luck to all.
Happy New Year 2008!!!hope everyone have a great year ahead.

Smoking? not anymore.

2007-12-25T15:59:00.000+08:00

well in addition of a info that i didnt include in the entry i posted just now.

I'M QUITTING SMOKING. thats a great news, arent it? i will do it though the withdrawal symptoms are realli bad. YA...hOOOoooooo~~~

ONCE AGAIN......

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!~~

Merry Christmas~~

2007-12-25T13:21:00.000+08:00

HoHoHo...Merry Christmas to all. May all wishes come true. misses everyone outcha but certain things are predestined. just gotta meet jolynn in hougang just before i went to look for my brother and company. and too i once gotten the chance to see hui min again. hui min thanks for the massage though it was the dolphine which indirectly did the job. lolx. time flies. everyone made changes. new year is around the corner so hope to get chances to meet all.
Wishes everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS~~ & HAPPY NEW YEAR!~

LIFE

2007-12-03T02:36:00.000+08:00

Title: Life
Lyrics: YUI
Music: COZZi
Romaji by: cori
From the single, LIFE

doro darake yo najimenai tokai de
onaji you ni waraenai utsumuite aruita no
isogiashi de surechigau hitotachi
"yume wa kanaimashita ka?" atashi mada mogaiteru

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
In the city I'm not used to that's full of dirt,
I can't laugh the same and I walked with my head down
People pass by in a quick pace
I ask "has their dreams come true?" But I'm still struggling

kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo ima wo umaku ikite mitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I want to try living in the present
rather than returning to my childhood
It's my nature to be a coward

hi no ataru basho ni dete ryoute wo hirogete mita nara
ano sora koete yukeru kana? nante omotta n' da

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
If I go to a sunny spot and stretch my arms out,
I wonder if I can go beyond the sky
that's what I thought

tobidatsu tame no tsubasa sore wa mada mienai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
The wings I use to fly away are still invisible
It's because it's not simple that I can go on living

nureta koinu hiroiageta dake de
chotto waraechau hodo namida ga koborete kita
ai saretai ai saretai bakari
atashi itte ita yo ne motomeru dake ja dame ne

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I just picked up a wet puppy
and for a while, I laughed so much that tears spilled
"I want to be loved, I just want to be loved"
is what I said. It's no good just to ask for it

kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo ima wo umaku ikite mitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I want to try living in the present
rather than returning to my childhood
It's my nature to be a coward

hi no ataru basho ni dete kono te wo tsuyoku nigitte mita
ano bsho ano toki wo kowashite I can change my life

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I went to a sunny spot and tried holding your hand tightly
I will destroy that place, that time so I can change my life

demo kokoro no naka subete wo totemo tsutaekirenai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
But I really can't express everything that's in my heart
It's because it's not simple that I can go on living

hi no ataru basho ni dete chizu wo hirogete miru kedo
I know... You know... mayoimichi mo shikata nai
I can change my life

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
I went to a sunny spot and spread out my map, but
I know... You know... that even the path of doubts can't be helped
I can change my life

sugite kita hibi zenbu de ima no atashi nan da yo
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru

。・☆。・☆・。。・☆。・☆・。
All the days that have passed make up the me that's here now
It's because it's not simple that I can go on living

life...

2007-12-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

i never thought i could have blog about the whole of my life in a post. well for a person's happiness and too for myself to review through for all these years...i will still post lyrics and translation from a piece of song still though i shouldnt be but music is my life!! the song title is "LIFE" by YUI HORIE.

since young i have been sucha "adorable, obedient and hardworking" boy as from my parents and my relatives. as compare to now, its really hard to believe i have been one in the past. i still remember i was crying non-stop when 1st stepped into nursery. i never left my mum like even 1hour yet i gotta do it. i was just so not use to it thus i cried and cried. it took me like days to settle down. i cant really remember things later on of my life. i shall skip to my secondary days.

it was the time my life changed tremendously. smoking to drinking to gambling to even fights and joining secret society. flashing back, it was really childish of me yet a stage i had to go through that i eventually learn. i almost got into Boys' Home and Rehabilation Centre, thank god who gave me the chance to change. the 1st changes i made out of my good will. since then i still do drink, gamble and smoke.
but take note. i'm changed. i'm just the random guy next door. a working personnel. at least i dont waste my life as before. i realise something, this is my life, i chose the way i live it, be good or bad, thats my life!

well relationships affairs was posted in the previous entry. actually it was Xinyi who prompted me to post this entry. she requested in exchange for her smile lol what a fair trade, arent it? lol >.<~~ wish ya happiness. wish ya healthy. wish ya always eat full full. lalala stay sweet. always.

truth

2007-12-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

Title: Truth
Artist: Riera feat. Yuna Ito

Let me stay with you
Kizutsuke au no ni
Naze konna ni motomete shimau no
Don’t you know my heart ?
Sunao ni narezu ni ita no
Tada hitotsu no ai ga hoshii no ni

Meguriaeta kiseki wo shinjite
Kanadete yukitai anata e no melody
Moshi mo subete wo nakushite shimatte mo
Kono omoi wa eien na no
It’s my truth

Believe in yourself
Tsumazuita toki mo
Aruitekita namida wo nugutte
Open up your heart, omoide no saki ni kitto
Ashita to iu kibou ga aru kara

Give me your loneliness
And I’ll give you my tenderness
Wasurenai de ite ano hi mita yume wa
Hanareteite mo kono mune ni itsudemo
Kanjite iru anata dake wo
It’s my truth

Tsunagaru hoshi ga sasayaki kakeru
Tomadou kokoro wo te ga shinagara
Deai to wakere hito wa sagasu no
Itsuka musubi aeru tsuyoi kizuna wa

Sekaijuu no kanashimi mo subete
Uketomete mo ii anata no tamenara
Sekaijuu kara okizari ni sarete mo
Sono hitomi wo shinjite iru
It’s my truth

Translation

Let me stay with you even if it hurts both of us
Why must I always demand so much
Don’t you know my heart could never stay put
There’s simply only one love I want

Believing in miracles we can come across
I go on playing a melody for you
Even if I end up losing everything
This feeling is forever, It’s my truth

Believe in yourself even when you stumble
Wipe your tears as you walk on
Open up your heart beyond the memories, surely
There is a hope we call tomorrow

Give me your loneliness
and I’ll give you my tenderness
Don’t forget the dream we saw that day
Even if we’re separated, in this heart
I will feel you forever, It’s my truth

Your whisper reaches the scattered stars
Illuminating my confused heart
In every encounter and farewell, what people search for is
This strong bond that will unite them someday

All the sadness throughout the world
If it’s for you, I can take it all in
Even if the whole world deserts me
I believe in those eyes, It’s my truth

sorry...

2007-12-01T02:51:00.000+08:00

i should be admitting this. i'm just a promise breaker. i do know that there would be tons out there agreeing on it. i made one while i broke another. thats me right?
i could even just cancelled a date or meeting last minute regardless of any reason i may have.

i hurt someone with it. one who i treasures more than any and its a disgrace i've been using her as a reason or rather an excuse to hurt many others. she can never be back but still i never give up. it was just around half a year ago that i realise thus i hope to change. i will reject any who comes to me, i will dispose of my feeling for any and i did. all because i still pin some hope that she would be back though it could never be happening.

ya came in suddenly saying "i'm falling for ya" just like after few meetings, what should i do? i should have did the same by rejecting ya but i didnt. i thought it was time for me to move on. there was no chemistry between us, all i feel about ya was nothing but just a friend, yet i tried to accept ya.i tried to like ya. little did i know its never possible as long as i dont forgets her. and so i lead ya on after hurting ya but it seems nothing can come out of it. sorry but i can only say that i should have been hard-hearted on this matter and did what i should have in the beginning. i can say that i can never be ya guy. sorri.

it may be a shock to everyone about my post but its me. accept me or what, for whom ya see me as, i still lives on. just weeks to go for everyone to forget my presence.

mogakeba mogaku hodo tsukisasaru kono kizu. kareochiru kanashimi my soul.

ta...da!!

2007-11-26T02:27:00.000+08:00

in the previous entry, did not blog about the recent things happened. well, now to let everyone share my joy - I'M A DAD NOW!! lol dun misunderstand the sentence. it was my best buddy daughter. i'm her god-dad!! it was realli a relief and oso happiness within upon her arrival to the world after like more than 16 hours. understand that its not easy to be a mum afterall. she's cute!!! her birthday on 18th november.[same day as me!!] my buddy gave a nice name - Evalynn Hermes. the next top model of the world as the dream of her dad. lol will always go play with her when i still could or i will hardly have the chance when i'm away on dec 14. =(

Fumarete mo taorete mo okiagaru tsuyosa kureta kimi ga....

test.

2007-11-23T04:47:00.000+08:00

i put up a test. i doubt anyone could be able to get full mark for it. its rather difficult. did it out of boredom and too to see who realli cares to go try. signs off. ohh yea.
P.S. xinyi thanks for the relink but when are ya gonna fulfill ya cravings? omg!!

nagareru hoshi ni negai o sotto tsubuyaku "Kimi to isshoni iraremasu youni..."

The Starry Sky

2007-11-10T07:19:00.000+08:00

Artist: HAL
Title: The Starry Sky

uh......konya mo mata hakanai hoshi zora
uh......hikaru hoshi ni negai o kakeru kara...

Nayami wa itsumo taeru koto mo nai
Keredo tobira wa mo hiraiteiru yo
Fumarete mo taorete mo okiagaru tsuyosa kureta kimi ga
Hokoreru hoshi ni naru tame boku wa utau kara
Ima ijou ni ganbaru kara motto tsuyoku nareru you ni...

Yurugi nai ai konna daiji na ai
Dare yori mo zutto daiji ni omotteru
Fuan na yoru mo tashika ni aru keredo
Makenaide ikiteiku bokura wa...

Unmei nante zankoku na mono de
Yosou nante ne tsukeyou mo nai deshou
Chitteiku kudateiku kedo kono te ni aru
Itami himitsu mochinagara kimi no tame ni boku wa utau kara
Omoeteite shinjiteite wasurenaideite hoshii

Dare datte kitto yowasa o himeteite
Kimi datte kitto honto wa kowai yo ne
Boku datte kitto wakarikitteru kedo
Makenaide ikiteiku bokura wa...

Hakanakute mou naite shimaisou de...
Kanashikute mou tatte irarenai yo

Hakanakute mou naite shimau keredo
kanashikute mou tatte irarenai kedo
Dakedo ne kitto ironna shougai ni
Makenaide ikiteikou bokura wa...

who could have been more jap and kor than me in my circle of fren? have nothing to blog thus posted the lyric of this song. its my emotions. understand it if ya care to try.

songs

2007-10-10T05:50:00.000+08:00

was to post yesterday mornin upon changin my playlist but i didnt. and now i fulfill my undone task after changing my blog skin. i remember the 1st two songs on the playlist by Jang Nara was from a Korean drama Love Paparazi. and too this two songs was Sharon's favourite. i wondered is it still. others was my favourites, in fact all are. they are all sad songs. sad songs are greatest music and i will never change my view on it.
there another song "July 1st" by Ayumi Hamasaki wasnt actualli Xinyi's favourite but she like it as it represents her birthday. hmmm she still haves craving for Fried Hokkien Mee & Sugar Cane Drink waiting for me to fulfill it.
"Endless Story" by Yuna Ito was the OST for NANA the movie. KXT[koh xiang ting] is a fan of the show. she likes the song though she prefer the chinese version sung by SAYA. NANA 2 is long out, i wondered have ya watched it?
my life is just like a song, ups and downs. from introduction to chorus to ending. each and every song describes and represents my every feelings. it too stores the memories and thoughts i have for everyone. music is my life. never remove it from my life. without it i could be just a "walking dead" which cant expresses himself.
music brought life to me thus it will be the onli to mark my end...

interest?

2007-10-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

just finish watching "Surgeon Bong Dal-hee". great show. i shall not miss it every week. for those interested its showin on VV Drama Channel 55 on Saturday 10:30pm. repeat telecast would be on 1.30am VV Drama Channel 255. didnt know that surgeons could be fun yet fear and dread. quoted this from the show, " Surgeons and Butlers are just a thin line difference, one saves while the latter kills." its so true. with our mistakes it could means eternity. "With our split of moments, it could be just eternity for them." while in the show i asked myself am i interested in being a nurse or doc? i simply cant, i'm not up to it. no matter my intelligence or education level its just far beyond to this dream. hmmm anyway its just a thought.
i'm emo-in once again. still a question mark to it. i just cant answer why am i emo-in? a sense of loneliness and emptiness just fill my heart. HAL's INJURY still the best music for my feelings. signs off...

quiz..

2007-09-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

haven been posting for the past month. i'm back to do this quiz. tagged by sharon.

List out your top 5 birthday presents u wish for:

#1-End of emo-ness.
#2-Having friends in contact always!
#3-Migrate to Korea!
#4-Parents in perfect health.
#5-"her" to stay happy.

1. The person who tagged u is:
- Sharon~

2. Your relationship with her is:
- Friend, a great one.

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
-Simple.
-Loves Luo Zhi Xiang.
-Likes dance and taekwondo.
-Enjoys singing K.
-Always with lots of greed.

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you:
- hmmm.... cooking?

5. The most memorable words she has said to you:
- i shan't reveal it.

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?:
- I will cherish her.

7. If she's your lover, what she has to improve on?:
- Speak out her mind. not to keep to herself.

8. If she becomes your enemy, you will:
- Curse Luo Zhi Xiang to disappear forever =P

9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is:
- Luo Zhi Xiang had disappeared.

10. The most desired thing you would like to do for her now is?:
- to share her burdens.

11. Your overall impression of her:
- Playful, forgetful.

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
- Flirt, hypocrites.

13. The character you love about yourself is:
- tolerance.

14. On the contrary, what character you hate about yourself:
- Emo-ness.

15. The most ideal person I would like to be:
- prefer myself best.

16. For the people who cared & liked you say something to them:
- I LOVE YOU!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about u.
Hey, please do k? Its quite fun though its long. Thanks (:
*1: Xinyi
*2: Shoonyee!
*3. Keslyn!
*4. Mummi GaGa!
*5. Amelia!
*6. Kiatsim!
*7. Rybina!
*8. Angeline!
*9. Allan [Ah Dang]!
*10. Eric?

Who's #2 having relationship with:
- how would i noe?

Is #9 a female/male:
- Definite M.

If #1 & #10 be together, will it be a good thing:
- Impossible. #1 is attached and #10 in love with #7
#3 and #4:
- Haywired. GAGA

#2 studying about:
- Singapore Poly.
When was the last time you chatted with #3:
- Months ago? lolx

What kind of music does # 8 like:
- Chinese pops.

Does #6 has any siblings?:
- yea, 1 brother.
Will u woo # 3?:
- omg, i wont. she's not my cup of tea.

How about #7?:
- i shan't comment on this.

Is #4 single:
- Yup.

Surname of #5:
- Ruth?

What's the hobby of #5:
- Pool, drink, smoke

#3 studying at:
- Serangoon JC.

Have you tried developing feelings for #8?:
- .....

Where does #9 live:
- Buangkok.

What colour does #4 like:
- Black.

Are #1 and #3 best friends?:
- nope, and they wont get to noe each other, perhaps?

Does #7 like #2?:
- -.-@ both are girls.. maybe both can be great frenx.

How do you know #2:
- Ex primary skol cum classmate

Does #5 have a pet?:
- hamsters?

the qns are.... okie watever aniwae i'm done with it those who are tagged pls do the quiz.. =)

Ayu-mi-x

2007-07-19T12:27:00.000+08:00

woots. ayumi released her latest SINGLE - GLITTER/FATED yesterday(18 July 2007)!! both songs are awesome. actualli all her songs are best. even on both her GLITTER & FATED PV it features HK Actor SHAWN YUE as the leading male role. the PVs was actualli a short flim called "DISTANCE LOVE". i have watched it and its reali nice yet sad. catch it guys. marks the end of my ayumi talk or...
yesterday i flew an aeroplane for my friend again. i was suppose to meet her for a haircut at 1pm yet i suffered concussion. damn. i reached home after work at 7am then watched tv did my neccessities till 11am and off i went to lala land. there after none could wake me up not even my friend with her tons of missed call. yet again she was furious and ignoring me. omg wat have i done? thousands of sorries wasnt useful. nvm things will turn for the better as time pass. =)
went drinkin at ST JAMES POWERHOUSE at night. wasnt sure wat was acting on me which causes me such tireness and drowsiness juse at 1am. i was the one who dont usually gets drunk easily. no choice came home around 2am when my friends went to ZOUK. slept at 230am, woke up at 530am and till now i'm still as awake damn. body is so tired but my mind is still clear. how i wish i could get more sleep. yawns.

doo la doo doo la la la

2007-07-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

emo-in. emo emo emo emo....ARGH!!! =( the thought of someone... memories still stays till now and it flashes back time after time. i'm so worn out that i'm still thinking if i should go for work. dropped by her blog. she's doin fine afterall. gotta come up with a decision whether to join my fren on the overseas trip.
marks off my post. =(

我介意

2007-07-07T04:17:00.000+08:00

其实我的安静有迹可寻
只是你不太留心而已
如果说两个人在一起
比一个人孤寂
爱会不会过期
渐渐你成为我部落格里
被别人阅览着的心情
我听说留言的人会有个面具
那个匿名的会不会就是你
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了她
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢
ha``ha ``ha
渐渐你成为我部落格里
被别人阅览着的心情
我听说留言的人会有个面具
那个匿名的会不会就是你
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了她
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了他
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢

bored...

2007-07-07T03:26:00.000+08:00

here am i bloggin at 3:24am. i should be workin or maybe in bed at this time. went for drink just now at D'Zess. Located @ 81 Maude Rd..Opp Jalan Besar Plaza.
fren's working there. had justin and lian kai with me along. neither am i drunk nor sleepy. damn. how wish i could jump onto the bed and have a good deep sleep.
now i guess i would be goin for some computer games to see if i could get to sleep later. back for more updates next time.

不痛

2007-06-29T14:39:00.000+08:00

一点点痛的感觉
加上一点我对你的思念,

承诺不算太遥远,
遥远只剩一瞬间,

一步步靠近终点,
再差一步我们踏上永远,

谎言让人太陶醉,
陶醉在你给的世界,

我不想不愿不去
承认我的执著,
怕不知不觉无法
忍住眼泪不留,

是爱伤害了彼此的自由,
你不看不听不说
为什麼要离开我,
我不哭不笑
只剩下沉默,

带著我的骄傲高飞远走

亲吻过的双手
拥抱过的温柔
所有的对错
跟着脚步
你一并带走

我不想不愿不去
承认我的执著,
怕不知不觉
无法忍住眼泪不留,

是爱伤害了彼此的自由,

你不看不听不说
为什麼要离开我,
我不哭不笑
只剩下沉默,

带著我的骄傲高飞远走

带著我的骄傲高飞远走

doo doo doo..

2007-06-29T13:26:00.000+08:00

back to bloggin since 18th. life getting interesting, maybe because movies are back into my life. had just watched Ocean's Thirteen & Transformers. nice shows. awesome.
met up with sharon yesterday along with lian kai and justin. dinner at Sakae. supposingly i should be gettin down to work at 11pm yet i pushed it off for the sake of them and the movie too. had been long since we had hang out together for a show.
lotsa of things rushes through in my mind, at least you are doin fine. great. cherish the moments i had now was the path i chose. life goes on, a simple sms or call to check up each other occasionally. a movie or a meal to follow up on each others life. isnt that wat everyone wished? simple yet the best way.

gotten this from sharon's bloggie.

i'm a butterfree. lol

tats all folks. bloggin back again sometime.

Birthday = DDay??

2007-06-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

happi birthday to me...
happi birthday to me...
happi birthday to myself...
happi birthday to me...!!!

my 1st and onli birthday sang to myself this year. lol no celebration. just a drink last nite. finally met up with kok beng. great that he's fine and too for his daughter and wife. i'm older a year! thanks for those who wished me and gave me their blessings. realli appreciated it. arigatou.

what kind of wine are you..

2007-06-12T17:08:00.001+08:00

You Are Chardonnay

Fresh, spirited, and classic - you have many facets to your personality.
You can be sweet and light. Or deep and complex.
You have a little bit of something to offer everyone... no wonder you're so popular.
Approachable and never smug, you are easy to get to know (and love!).

Deep down you are: Dependable and modest

Your partying style: Understated and polite

Your company is enjoyed best with: Cold or wild meat

What Kind of Wine Are You?

what your face says.

2007-06-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem intelligent and a bit intimidating.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

no life...

2007-06-11T14:04:00.000+08:00

1st ever time to be able to wake up at such early timing from sleep after work from previous night. browsing through everyone's bloggies. realised that i missed quite alot of my fren progress, life, etc. found out that i'm NO LIFE!! my day starts in the night. 8pm/9pm/11pm - 6am WORK, once in awhile 7am - 8am BREAKFAST with colleagues, HOME SWEET HOME then, into LALA LAND, wake up at night to bath, prepare, faster makan, take cab to rush for work. repeated cycle/process everyday. -.- lol. realii NO LIFE damn. but tats the path i have chosen so no complaints for that. just hope more colours into my life. wishful thinking.
it may just be that tiny weeny issue to ya but it still lies within. for ages i did not change password for all accounts wat-so-ever.thus if hackers do come, i'm die for sure. haha but still i wont change. no idea on that. no other password can think of which i wont forget. bdae coming. next mon. 18/6. best day to get one drunk.
i just cant seems to stop or cut down my sticks recently, more and more, though my ciggys are cheaps but dunno why also. 1 &1/2 pack a day..... even the massage parlour uncle which sells me ciggys noe, whenever i dun visit him today, tomorrow i sure will get two packs. he will prepare it nicely for my arrival. lol. nvm let me die younger. haha kidding. okie update soon next time. may be tomorrow? who knows? who cares though?

busy busy

2007-05-24T07:02:00.000+08:00

ohh thursday... most busy day of the week. 2-5pm lesson at boonkeng. 6-9pm working at CINENOW at Hougang. 11pm-6am working at Club 97. from now 7am, after bathing, breakfast etc. till 8am then can turn in. 8am - 1pm = 5 hours of sleep. -.-! bet that i would fall asleep during lesson. quite contented, realli. at least i'm not living off my life meaninglessly like before. Not totally meaningless but not like rotting at home doing nothing or no entertainment. lets end here then or my time for lala land visit is decreasing. mata ashita. =)

forgotten bloggy

2007-05-23T08:05:00.000+08:00

woots i'm finally back to blog. done with work till 6am. reached home 7am. bath, ate breakfast, doped myself with medicine(still recovering from a serious sore throat) here i am to blog. actualli had forgotten that i still have this blog plus had been busy with work everidae.
Wednesday, Thursday & Sunday - CINENOW(6pm-9pm on weekdays, 3pm-9pm on weekends, Everidae - Club 97(8pm,9pm,11pm to 6am) - day time in lala land, night time workaholic = clearly shows that i wouldnt even have the time for blogging or other things. i'm not in need of $$$ neither am i too free, just that i had free time and i'm used to nightlife thus rather get myself doing much more meaningful things. i can earn extra income. i can get new experiences. i can make new friends too. gotten my salary. gave my dad some haha too much that i tink i should give my parents. =p
catch up some day my frens but "book" me in advance or ya guys can come down to Club 97.

Club97
Orchard Plaza 5th floor [turn to ya right from lift]
Age restrictions: 18 for females, 25 for males
ENTRANCE FREE
Live Band, KTVs, Dancefloor

see ya guys there if realli interested to come. give me a call first. time to lala land. still gotta work at 6pm later. Nites.

loads tons millions...

2007-02-12T14:57:00.000+08:00

was suppose to update previously on 28th after the S.H.E concert but somehow blogger was cranky and i couldnt get in here plus recently haven been free that i have not been online frequently too. on 28th, went S.H.E concert together with FS, clement, kok, kxt, adrain, sean and few more. its my first time live in S.H.E concert. their previous concert was only able to catch on dvds. kxt's conclusion for the concert was that it wasnt as happenin as before and not much to expect from it. from S.H.E performance i somehow agrees with her but well their songs are still as nice. hope they do bring more excitement for their next concert in future.
ohh i got a haircut. FINGERWORKS. nice saloon. pleasant atmosphere. but..... LOUSI HAIRSTYLIST!!! i asked the hairstylist to design a hair style for me but i would like to have it long. wth. in the end spent 45mins, cost 24bucks and i gotten a same old hairstyle but shorter. damn!! if i had know it i would have rather go to JEAN YIP as i previously go. shit FINGERWORKS!!! blacklisted!!! i will never visit it again. gotten another haircut after 3days when i brought liang zhou to STELLA. 10 bucks yet it was so so so so so much better than FINGERWORKS!! learnt my lesson. never visit unknown saloon unless ya tried.
startin work later at 6pm. CineNow. a 24hr dvds/vcds rental shop. i will be at Hougang outlet. this will be just a leisure work i guess. still have more jobs oncoming. long awaited CNY is around the corner too. ANG BAO! ANG BAO! ANG BAO! haha. i think there will be at least 500bucks of ANG BAO this year. =)
P.S. if any have ani show wanna watch can let me know. Illusionist is out in DVD code 1 liao. more new released shows are comin sio check it out from me.

back to updates...

2007-01-24T07:22:00.000+08:00

i'm back for new update. its the 24th of jan yet this is just the very 1st update of the year 2007. no wonder i had been getting lotsa complains. i promised tons that i will update but as far as ya guys know "PROMISE ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN" , arent it? i mean just for this issue so i'm not trying to mislead any reader. sometimes i'm realli envious of ya guys having no problems to update frequently. should i find a solution to do so too? nahx i guess not but i will try at least one per week then. gotten up my tremendous effort to close the paycheck issue. previous company owes me 1k and they went into "hiding" for a week from last monday which was the pay day. i gotta resort to bring the matter up to the government. i was so sure that i will not fail to get the $$$ back. i had witnesses. evidences. i could have even gotten more than 1k if the matter realli blows up but to think they gave me the $$$ yesterday just to ensure i wouldnt sue them. i'm thinking why would they gotta wait till they realise they were at the losing end before they would be repentant and apologise? count their arse lucky this time. or bankruptcy awaits them. i swear.
hair cut later. rather unwillingly to do it but still it would be better to get it nice and neat even its long. haven been visiting a saloon for the past 1/2 year. whoever the hairstylist today will be having a hard time getting my hair done. still i haven choose where should i go. JEAN YIP? MONSOON? TWISTER? FINGERWORKS? or where? please do give me some suggestions and opinions. [NO CHAPTER 2!!!] i hate it. lousi skills yet namin themselves the top hairstylists. *pui* will be out of my choice totally. hmm well lets see if i can get my decision making done or no HAIR CUT!!!! wheee... ohh yeah my novels are finally reaching me. mailing to me within these 3 working days. yeah! books, books and books! wondering what's changing me but i'm growing interest for books. anyway its a good sign i will maintain it.
thats all i can update. and just remember that mum cant bear to see my hair goes off so i will make sure to disappoint her then.. =p

a little pain

2006-12-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

Travel to the moon. The dream where you first appeared fades out. The light of the star I longed for is taken away. The smile I had to forget in order to be strong, for sure. If we are together, we can take it back.
Travel in silenceI extend my hand to feel you, yet You're so far away. That memory is etched within me when I hear your voice as I close my eyes. Even a little pain is precious to me.
Open your eyes,I'm here waiting for you. There is a future different from now. I'm here waiting for you. And I continue screaming. The thread that binds our hearts together is pulling to bring you by my side as before. No need to cry....

down down...deeper

2006-12-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

the down period of the year. right at the endin of the year before a new beginning awakes. well guess the only way out is to ignore and throw it way behind me and focus more on my work. hope the heartaches and stabbings is coming to an end soon. i know Father will leads me through this.

vivacity..

2006-12-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

at last ended my torment at VIVO City. the roadshow ended on sunday. always thought that it was boring and dull at VIVO but i felt totally differently on sunday. found a duper nice spot for rotting. windy, cooling and too it has the best scenery up there right at the roof top!!! nice and beautiful. it was known to be impossible to watch a sunset at singapore but did it at VIVO. thanks to the internationally acclaimed japanese architect MR TOYO ITO, singapore had gotten sucha nice and awesome place. arigatou. with this big finding i'm so glad for not rejecting coming here. there's sucha saying " Good things dont always come by. " well i gotta agree fully to it as the system gives lotsa of problems on the last day. damn. the IT engineer too is a ridiculous and stubborn creature. having an online system server do fasten up the work but it does not mean you cant resort to using manual work when it cant work. god damn him for being so dependent on the stupid lousy system but well i too thanks to it for paying me $80 a day doing nothing. this week gonna catch Midnight Sun. a MUST!!! its starring YUI! no one is joining me for it so guess i will be alone then but its okie. a nice show so i wouldnt be even bothered for being alone or what. friend was asking me if "SCHVELLE" was nice? she was asking my opinion for this name to be her christian name. its unique. have not came across anyone with this name yet. either its someone i know or not. she was asking me how i find it. it gave me a bit of elegancy and a rebellious feeling haha and to think she put that sentence as her nick...lolx. SCHVELLE SCHVELLE SCHVELLE... not bad huh the name? how did she came to think about it? anyway not an important issue to be thinking about it. all are overseas leaving me here. sigh~ nvm i will be the one leaving you all next year haha sweet revenge!! =X

complains....

2006-12-01T04:07:00.000+08:00

finally gotta taste of my own medicine. had been the one complainin others not updating their blogs but now it seems i'm been bombarded by others instead for not updating...after 2 updates of song lyrics i was being complained that how it could be counted as one of the updates? ohh my tian i wasnt having any inspiration. like i said, " no inspirations no updates. " well seem i gotta modify it now - " no inspirations no updates = tio complains. "
anyway had been busy with helping with a project and deadline ish up in just 4days but i'm sure i could finish it and and too it would be a great work. hehe so no worries. the day before just started my new job. another IT job again. its at NTU upgrading their wireless network. it has good pay, good environment and good colleagues too but its at BOON LAY!!! travellin all the way from kovan to boon lay and to NTU ish nightmare. total of at least an hour journey plus the crowded train cabins and buses! too bad good jobs dont come by easy sio gotta bear with it. went on MON and TUES but wasnt able to wake up on WED and THURS was still not feeling well from the acute stomach pain on the previous night. traditional self-medication taught was effective so didnt got a chance to visit the doctors. too bad for them not being able to earn my fees...haha :P because of the absense for these two days i was blame by the engineers from the other company for being irresponsible. my company was understanding at least they arranged me to go other place to handle other projects so as to prevent unneccessary hostility. hopefully i could get nearer places this time round.
gotta a great and fulfilling 2 weeks and i know the upcoming future would be as good and maybe better so i do hope to be as happy and loved. thanks to ya [someone outcha] and i think i falling more for the song "Liang Shan Bo Yu Juliet" though had been listening it tons of times...signs off for now then. nitex all

moon [dal

2006-11-20T13:49:00.000+08:00

Will my song be heard amongst the wind that blows?
It’s the end, with the those things that were spread
I have so many things that I want to say
I’m keeping the moon in my memory tonight
When the deep blue night ends
Will I be able to rest?

I’m like you, but I can’t reach you
I’m like you, you’re making me cry

Tonight is cold and dreary
I’m left alone

There’s no hope, even though the moonbeams shine
I’m keeping the moon in my memory tonight
When the deep blue night ends
Will it all be erased?

I’m like you, but I can’t reach you
I’m like you, if you’re making me cry…

You can’t even leave some light for me..
Why can’t you talk to me?

P.S. Eng translation

hmmm.....

2006-11-16T13:53:00.000+08:00

Cannot Hold, Cannot Touch
Cannot Be Together
Cannot Love, Cannot Kiss
Cannot Have Eachother
Must Be Strong
And We Must Let Go
Cannot Say What our Hearts Must Know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you.. here In My Arms
How Does One Walks away from all of the memories
How Do I Not Miss You When You Are Gone

Cannot Dream
Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend its over
Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say what we no longer long

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want ou Here In My Arms
How does one walks away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you When You Are Gone
How can I not love you..

Must Be Brave
And we must be strong
Cannot say what we've no longer long..

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here In my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you... when you are gone

new skin...

2006-11-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

finally gotta the skin changed. was quite tired of it and it was quite a trouble to view it using the previous skin though it looked nice...well this ish looking great too but sad to say its not my design. "stolen" from another designer haha well sorri for that theft. =P anyway now my blog looks fresh and pleasant. i'm happi and pleased but it would be better if i had used my own creation+design. i'm just so lazi to complete the veri last part of it sio well ya know....
another boring day. by this week my rashes would totally be gone sio means i'm free of illness...haha i had won the battle with the virus.a long battle lasted 4weeks...i'm the great warrior. lol kinda getting irritated of staying home. let me get out far away...whee...ohh ya i too just gotten another blog lol dunno how i gotten it too. maybe when i done with it i will reveal the URL...

changes....

2006-11-09T06:54:00.000+08:00

sucha great timing to be getting inspirations for this new update huh? lol but well mind ish still as fresh though had been up through the night. just went through bill heng's bloggie. it was greatly a surprise as he was much more in character than he realli shows us. hmmm well it had been long since we caught up with each other sio do get a day out? sio sure it would basketball on that day =P i too went through my sec school teacher bloggie and it was much more a shock too...maybe much more than reading bill's one...well he ish none other than MR SOO. though came to know his blog long ago but didnt got into it to read and didnt know why am i doin it now =X his english language structure was much more better than i expected lol. ya cant blame me for that thought as he was the CHINESE HOD!! omg but yet his chinese wasnt the best as i thought..[no offence] anyway he's a great teacher...sio he could be GTS? haha the GREAT TEACHER SOO.
recently notices lotsa things...everyone had made great changes. no matter for it to be bad or good. in terms of personalities, habits etc...well this proves that everyone had grown. but perhaps i wouldnt use this for some of the humans outcha. their thinkings wouldnt be changin i guess as they are still as the same as years passed. maybe one of my new year resolutions would be wishing them to be growin up? lol. i too made changes...and i wouldnt deny that some changes are getting bad or even worse. i'm greatly sorri for the bad effects and impacts i had brought to others for these changes but i guess sorri could be the onli word i could say as things had happened. its irreversible. and maybe i will do my veri best to stop the bad changes. think thats it for today folks... inspirations ran out... sio means?? signing off of course... =X

dead bored....

2006-11-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

omg...cant imagine i had been resting at home doing nothing for 2 weeks. ohh my tian people please dont complain...i'm a sickly person please spare me a thought =p i'm disfigured now too lol. wo de beautiful face....oops!! actualli was quite shock myself too that i wasnt at all bother to the boredom but instead i'm enjoying it.well seems quite gotten used it that i realli enjoyed the moments rotting at home everidae. anyway i'm recovering and soon would be back to my works. isnt the best feeling to be falling sick. felt like being quarantined... thanks to the concern ya guys had gave me during this period of time and i realli cant come up with any inspirations to blog sorri be sure to be back again with a longer and better update... = ]

sad...i'm sorry

2006-10-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

well things often happen sio unexpectedly.even to a certain extent that everyone would be victim of the unexpected event or situation.everyone would be thinking he or she maybe the most hurt one. and of course i too felt so.regarding the problems i guess i know what's the reason down there...
sorry janice for those jokes and asking ya all those questions.i apologise for the incident on felicia's too.well there would be a supporting reason for every thoughts ya have or actions ya do so i had mine too... certain things are best kept unknown.even if it may be a lie to ya guys i dun care.anyway no matter what things may be following up thanks for being a friend down there and felicia too...as for xiangting's incident i know ya are worrying.ya will have my promise that she would not be harm or hurt in anyway...things will be as normal.
thanks for being there to share my problems, silly gal.its more than enough on the fun,excitement and laughter ya had brought.put all those as memories as ya may want it or be it to be thrown into the trash.sorry for being appearing and re-knowing ya.sorry for the habits i had let ya gotten used to.sorry for not able to share with ya everything.its best not for ya to know all about it.let it stays as a myth.a mystery to everyone forever.i would be most grateful then.

just my luck or urs?

2006-10-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

walking ish inevitable to everyone everyday...we walked down the stairs, walked to bus stops or even ya walked around when work. but have ya thought walking at least more than 3km everyday? it ish happening on me and it had become a must now. lol. haha of course i wont be doing it alone. i gotta someone to walk with me and the person will be known as someone here as i'm not suppose to disclose the name. sio its for you guys outcha to find it out ba but it will never be digged out of me sio give up ya ideas if ya gonna ask me...hehe =X the walking habit had been over for at least 2weeks i guess and seems i had been sio interested and enjoying it haha... maybe ish because of ya...its sio sure that i wouldnt be enjoying a single bit if i were to walk alone but i think i wouldnt be walking anyway if i'm alone unless i felt like to or whatever reasons i may have...recently too much happened and my appearance had been much more a trouble and stress.i'm sorrie. disppearance may be a solution but it wouldnt be agreed. i'm trying to minimise the hurts and harm to me only but there isnt any good solutions that i can come up with unless i can treat ya as little better as possible.its not easy but i would try because i know it would be best to the situation [maybe i'm wrong, it maybe the worse though]. anyway let us keep things as now. let things remain. let nothing be changed. even there would be changes let it be good ones. i like the POOH, the MINI POOH...i dun care!! i'm gonna snatch it from ya or steal it haha =p or perhaps ya get one for me. find one that looks like me just as the one ya had which looks like ya totally haha =p bleahx..

blessed me...

2006-10-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

didnt realli know i could still meet a soul mate huh? haha well the place goes rightfully to our KOH XIANG TING!!! are ya honoured? well i guess ya dont. ya this big mature devil!! NI SI DING LE!!! haha =p I DONT CARE EVEN I"M USING WORDS FROM YA MOUTH!! coz ya used mine. nani nani poo poo...okie enough of the crapping liao. simply learned it from ya. =p wasnt even talking to each other in the past perhaps just a HI, BYE and few sentences but now we had sio much to tok and share haha. well what could i still expect huh? gotta such good mature devil as my soul mate...thanks for ya listening ear but hopefully dont turns into a rotten one from listening to me. i gotta lotsa thanks to say to ya. thanks for accompany. thanks for the advices and encouraging words ya had given me. thanks for the introduction of that green tea. thanks for being my gret soul mate. okie lets stop here sounded i'm giving the thankgiving speech. lol =x well i know ya also will have lotsa thanks to tell me too haha kidding coz i know ya wont have as much as me. we realli talked much. right from the past till now. we had realli grown up. i too found out that i changed too much. i was too shock to discover it too. unbelievable!!! lets switch to Unbelievable by Craig David lol haha learned too much crapping from ya liao lah. Ohh My Tian!!! realli hope that we can still be as good in future coz ya my soul mate will always be one...arigatou =] let me wish that more of ya As baby will come to ya. currently ya had gotten 6 of them and juz today ya gotten 2!!! congrats!! gong xi gong xi gong xi ni!!! haha sio ya muz treat me eat for celebration =p
ohh another thing ish i think i'm not far from success to change justin... at least i gotten him back to study and now he ish taking his O's. jiayou!! jiayou!! jiayou!! i know ya can do it as long as ya work hard. i also got him to work with me sio he wont be rotting at home doing nothing. he even made an effort to wake up as early as 7AM for work and travel around a 45mins journey to work!! all these ish depend on ya but ya did it!! justin well i think the rest ish up to ya but still i will help ya as much as i can. sorrie too that i often missed work recently due to some problems i had. sorrie but ya still complete the required work perfectly. my friendship with ya will last. lets pray haha =p
yesterday night i finally got through and contacted liming. sio long never see ya and chat. how could ya do that to the great friend of yours haha I'M ALEX-ANDER the GREAT!! haha sio i dont care ya owns me a treat. ya cant reject it coz its ya fault!!! well know ya are busy with ya school works and activities sio its okie... work hard wor. see ya soon plus better dont forgets me!

P.S. mature devil ya dont worry so much wor. i would be okie de but juz gotta lend me ya ear and ya leg [ to make ya walk as much as i can. haha =p] thanks...

surveys...

2006-10-13T01:37:00.000+08:00

well i wasnt tagged for this survey but i 'stolen' it from melody haha [ izzit copyrighted? but well I DONT CARE!! HAHA ] the survey goes likedat...

1) single, taken or crushin?-crushin.
2) are u happy with ur life now?-maybe.
3) when u meet the right person, do u fall in love fast?-hmm a good qns but well it takes time fer me to know if i love her.
4) have u ever been heart broken?- yes.lotsa.
5) Do you believe tt there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?-yeah but it realli depends on the situation well i'm been thru it befor but it will stays as a secret. =]
7) ever tok abt marriage to someone else?-Yea.but juz pure thinkin
8) Do u want childen?-maybe if i had gotten into a marriage 1st ba...
9) How many?-tat would be a future issue.
10) Would u ever consider adoption?-i guess so or perhaps maybe ba.
11) If someone likes you now, what do you tink is the best way for him/ her to let you know his/ her feelings?-err...ish depending who izzit plus wat ish the situation.
12) Do you enjoy going into relationships?-love ish blind.everyone would enjoy it.
13) Do you believe in love at first sight?-not realli.time proves it.
14) Do you believe you can change someone?-yes! and i did!!!
15) If you could married elsewhere, where would it be?-korea...japan...barcelona...
16) Do you give in easily when you're fighting?-am i the one at fault? but still i will try to give in.
17) Do you have feeling for someone right now?-yeah!
18) Have you ever wished that you could have someone but you messed it up?-yeah.messed it totally.
19) Have u ever broken a heart?-its cruel to do that by the truth ish i did...
20) If one day your best friend falls in love with the gal/ guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?-hmm fer my character i will give in but now i dont. i would ask fer a fair competition.sounded sio strange, aren't i?
21) Are you missing anyone right now?-Yes. why not? i misses sharon, xiangting, justin, liming, ivy. haha besties of my life. thanks.
22) Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.. write their names below..yeah.. and the list goes like this...

sharon??

xiangting??

gaga mummi??

felicia??

janice??

endings...

2006-10-11T03:14:00.000+08:00

well i'm back again to blog.to let out news on my latest findings or even about my life...sio sure there ish tonnes of humans outcha waiting to see my latest updates haha =p tink ya all have seen the title of this post - "endings".i'm gonna put an end to everything.nonetheless ish on my relationships.hopefully it's realli the end.i'm realli tired.its finally tym to put a full stop to it.
as everyone had know about me and my current girlfriend.we both had been together for juz less than half a year, to be exact its 3months & 10days.it maybe short to everyone but the days we both had was full of happiness and laughter but of course there ish love too.i wouldnt deny that i realli felt for her.and its the truth that she was the first i realli put down my real feelings on since after Sharon.we both shared a common belief - love.we came together through this but we would not end this with this too.the love ish turning one-sided or in fact it had actually been. "give and take" but i had never felt the giving part from ya sio thus there wouldnt be any taking part for me to be in.tolerance for ya was in fact limitless but as days goes on,ya are taking me for granted,still i continue to tolerate.i was able to do it because i keep telling myself, "loving someone was to accept his/her everything sio i should be tolerating no matter how unreasonable or how much ya took me for granted."everything didnt went as what i wished for and expected. ya continued ya unreasonable doings,attitudes and everything.time and time but i gave ya and myself chances.one right after another.it still did not help.sio i guess this ish time for me to say, "thanks but goodbye."ya was loving, ya got ya gentle and cute side too but i can only say maybe i didnt realli truly love ya thats why i wasnt able to accept ya everything, sorry.and thanks too.
another part ish on Sharon.i had been holding to her for 3years(exact ish reaching 3years) coz she's still the one in my heart.never be replaced.a mistake done and i loses her forever.even fer years of waiting and repenting it never once occured that ya gave me another chance and comes back to me."2004 january 28" the day we left each other.now ish the 2006 october 11.wow i cant even believe after that long i can still holds on to ya but today i came down to this decision. it would be the last and final decision.i have decided to let ya go.i will moves on and not hold on to ya anymore.we will never be back as before,it was juz a foolish me to still holding the broken line linking us together.ya will never know how much tears i shed how much heart pains i took how much things i did but well it was juz foolish of me to do all this ba.holding on to the impossible.no matter how many people adviced me encouraged me or tried to talk me out of it i never been once gave up.even how many times ya broke my heart when i asked for ya return and forgiveness i still holds on to ya.but now i finally understands that you could never be back. i misses the feelings of holding ya hand,the hugs ya gave me, the time ya spent waiting and worrying for me.let me put an end to this.i'm not myself anymore.well thanks for being that special part of my life.its a moment of magic.thanks but i still wanna ask ya do i still the one ya always cared for as what ya said before?i will not get into any relationships as i dont want to be hurt or hurting others.i will give ya my blessings to ya and ya boyfriend. take care.

cutee...interesting..

2006-10-06T13:06:00.000+08:00

A - Damn good kisser.

B - Good all around person.

C - You're wild & crazy.

D - You have one of the best personalities ever.

E -You have a nice ass

F - People totally adore you.

G - You never let people tell you what to do.

H - You have a very good personality and looks.

I - You get hyper easily.J - Everyone loves you.

K - You like to try new things.

L - You live to have fun.

M - Success comes easily to you.

N - You are absolutely beautiful.

O - You're an awesome person.

P - You are popular with all types of people.

Q - You are a hypocrite.

R - Sexy!

S - Easy to fall in love with.

T - You're loyal to those you love.

U - You really like to chill.

V - You are not judgemental.

W - You are very broad minded.

X - You never let people tell you what to do.

Y - One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.

Z - You're a little too hard to find

A - Damn good kisser.

L - You live to have fun.

E - You have a nice ass.

X - You never let people tell you what to do.

a damn good kisser? hmm shld try it b4 puttin down ya comments =p
of course. my life ish to haf fun and create havoc haha =X
nice ass? omg how nice can i haf it? lol
well i control my own life ya dun sio i do it in my way whee!!!

confused...

2006-10-02T02:46:00.000+08:00

better get a new post done or someone ish saying that i'm not updating haha. ya noe who i referring to =p well have been quite long since last update[actualli just 6 days],maybe people have been used to me updating and putting up new posts everyday but ya guys gotta understand me that it had been getting boring nowadays that i cant come up with anything to blog too...sio please forgive me...i will kneel down with al my sincerity haha...=X
it had been long since the feeling came up again.well though i may have been saying, "i had forgotten.i had forgotten." but nevertheless it always stays deep in me.never for once left me or perhaps i should say i had never once let go of it.some said why am i that foolish to be doing this while others said why am i still standing at the same spot and not moving on.i can lie to ya guys but i wouldnt be able to lie to myself.3 years.what a long wait but a worthwhile wait.i wouldnt mind waiting longer as long as even i can get a day.i no need forever,my wish ish just a day.if i can turn back the time i would change and not commit the mistake.just a thinking coz i noe it wouldnt happen.ya guys may be right to say i'm foolish and stupid to wait but how i wish i can give up.it had been 3 years.if it had been that easy i would have did it.thanks for ya guys to be there to comment on me too...i guess someone & feli understand what am i saying now rite? haha please dont get it all wrong...nothing to do with what ya all think everyone other than the two i mentioned...guess thats all i can say for currently sio lets hope everything got better than expected...

contradictions...

2006-09-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

having ya was a bleesing to me.it was sio magical,sio beautiful.nevertheless we knew we had something in common - "we lurvve each other".we came sio far here, we endured sio much, what other things we have not encountered though the problems we had may not be the worse compared to others but still we both came to this point together,hand in hand,heart to heart...
i gotta face the truth.it would be a tough decision for ya to make but i said it, i will respect ya decision no matter what it may be,simply because i luv ya. there's no eternity in this world.there's no forever or never ending in this world.sio everything in this world will always come to an end.its too same fer ya and me but i noe and i believe that we would be together for as long.maybe till the end of our time.well i hope ya dun take the matter too serious.its still long or maybe it would never happen at all. "Follow what ya heart says,its always the right thing" - thats what i always said to others but i believe in it sio too did it...i followed.my heart says i love ya.honey thanks for being there always the 1st promise to ya will always stands sio dun worry that i will be leaving... =)
today went out with honey for lunch.somehow a quite late one at around 2plus due to my delay...sorri honey to have make ya hungry,mi ahn hae yo...we gotten KFC as had been long since ate it coz i dun tend to like fastfood that much but i misses cheese fries haha...talked quite alot on some issues.well was bored sio decided to window shop after the meal...gotten the sweets at MINI TOON again haha. sio nice and i'm simply loving it...honey didnt ate much of it today.not her usual self.maybe ish because she's tinking about the things ba...dun tink sio much wor no worries....went to TIMES too to read some magazine and i was finding a new set of Tarot Cards,honey bought her I ZHOU KHAN[my hanyu pinyin abit lousi] too...window shop around at TM then CENTURY SQUARE before heading back home but today was much more special... as i walked honey home wheee!!! was sio relaxing and nice...next tym can walk again haha.. honey waited bus with me before she headed back home.muackiex.thought of so much things today...was thinking about all the moments had and spent with honey...i luv her...kam sa hae yo honey for being wif me...<3<3<3

sai lang??

2006-09-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

ohh my ohh my...when did the "sai lang" (shit man) de nick came on to my head? when did i became one? lol started from honey who KNS me then to hui hui who KNS me as well as calling me "sai lang" plus lotsa of other nicknames...what do i exactly look like?today gerald took off again...left alone once again.in a office bigger than my house alone.eating lunch alone.doin work alone.*chill* and the air-con ish realli cold...damn 2molo would be my revenge time - take off and leave gerald alone haha =p i'm bad arent i? well i too sick today sio fair and square...=X
luckily i had honey to sms with me the whole day even till i off from work...at nite went over to pasir ris to teach hui hui biology as she would be having her paper 2molo..kanbate =) hopefully the notes i had summarised for ya ish useful...muz do well if not will shows that i'm a bad teacher haha....recently kinda of relieved quite alot of stress and my burden seems much more lighter...wondering why and what's the reason behind it?but for one thing i can confirm ish HONEY is one and the most important factor behind it...i luv ya my dear honey <3 thanks for always been there for me.ya absence makes my heart fonders.misses ya lotsa but 2molo will haf lunch wif ya liao...the long awaited one haha yeah!!! muackiex...te amo

wheee....

2006-09-22T19:07:00.000+08:00

wheee.....i'm finally home!!!HOME SWEET HOME!!!the first tym reachin home that earli after work but guess that today would be the onli day having this coz i haf completed all the indexing which are in the server...haha sio happi but this means tat i gotta do the scanning job...sniff sniff =X today i hit the record of mine wondering haf i hit gerald's one...i did 370 indexing.tats alot man.even melvin my 'boss' was some how shocked to hear it when i updated him.lol guessed i had did a great job then...hehe i should stop praising myself if not people outcha would be waiting to chop me and booing me...=x today was sio bored but luckily brought the discs to haf a better and comfortable environment for working haha. music ish my life.without it life would be had been sio dull juz like a black and white photo lol.and the cause of today's boredom ish - GERALD!!! he took off...UrghHH!!! cant wait to squeeze everything out of him haha kidding =p
at least he chose the right date to take off so i wouldnt gotta haf a lonely lunch...sounded sio sad huh?i had my church sisters and frenx to haf lunch wif me plus chris's mom cooked CURRY CHICKEN for us! sio nice and delicious..yum yum! i missing it again should haf packet it home... =p thankx chris and the mom...(next tym call ya to order the curry haha)
well friday ish finally coming to an end = the working days of mine fer this week ended too... haha sio happi at least i can sleep peacefully.no more early waking ups.no more ringing of alarm clock.no more travelling long distance.most importantly ish no more facing the computer and doing indexing and scanning haha but all these happiness will onli last 2 days....=( nightmare will be back on monday again.seems that i'm saying that my job was like a shit? haha dont get it wrong everione juz that i'm worn out from the work loads sio no worries feel free to work for SINGTEL especially...hehe ltr getting to sembawang and maybe can drive again liao wheee.... well i will be back fer more updates...but please do tag me...if not tym for massacre haha...

is...

2006-09-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

worn out with the work at singtel...due to lack of sleep and plus facing the com every single minute.making my eyes sio tired. well sio shocked that i could complete 1000 plus of blueprints indexing in 4days plus oso stamping more than 500plus of blueprints too and there ish still numerous scannings...seems i'm sio hardworking haha =p aniwae i finally understand why gerald had been complaining about the job but he would no longer be bored as he got me to keep him accompany! haha hopefully 2molo can set a record of finishin 500 indexing haha...then i would be in guiness world record. *bleahx*
well today honey went fer melvin's operation. and until evening tym after i off from work she came and met me for dinner...gotten her craving fulfilled - fish n' chips...she still got much more cravings...hokkien mee, earthquake and lotsa...well wait till we both can haf same free tym then ba...2molo honey ish goin out wif melvin again..hmm they watchin movie - forbidden siren as from honey said.guessed i can onli watch that movie alone next tym.hmm gotta wake up earli fer work 2molo sio its beddie tym....!!!! cya allz around then..

upcoming events

2006-09-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

woots there ish sio mani upcoming events haha...sio excited and looking forward for them. wells O level ish around the corner sio does A levels, promos exams of JCs, PSLE and other final year examinations...hmm good luck to all my frenx and buddies for ya upcoming exams..kanbate =)
hmm i was sayin about the upcoming events...out of all there would be 3 POTLUCK. OMGOODNESS sio much of it...everione would be goin crazy about my cake... =p and kiat sim I DUN CARE, YA WILL STILL BRING COOKED FOOD EVEN IF YA GOT SKOL HAHA!!! one ish of my primary skol gathering,one ish WILL "daddie" sentosa de another one ish church de.lol guess i would haf a good life hehe...other events would be nite cycling, ice-skating and others to be confirmed. well well well i'm sio happi to be invited to sio mani events.felt sio honoured some how haha =p aniwae 2molo honey would be goin to melvin's operation.and in the nite ym would be coming to hougang fer dinner wif me to compensate the date she cancelled last minute today.she will be treatin haha...muackiex honey i noe ya luv me but i lurvve ya too..<3 watever it ish my trust will always be in ya...huggies

asleep...

2006-09-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

went to church this mornin...omg it was so rare for me to go.i was shocked myself too but i was able to make it because i sacrifices my sleepin time for it.haha =P aniwae i'm glad i went as i felt that i was not alone bearing my burdens and stress...it was much more a relieve to myself.i finally felt peace in me...after coming back home from the church.went into a deep long sleep...felt sio great and if my parents didnt woke me up i should haf slept till the next morning ba...2molo would be my 1st day of my new job...wheee and i'm working wif gerald haha i loving it...haha =p hmmm cong cong wish me good luck =0 my honey too <3

Rosario...

2006-09-17T01:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm kinda sio sad in me yet it wasnt can be said as sad too...its juz a mixed feeling with sadness emptiness loneliness lost. all these feelings are juz around...i juz dunno what i wanted and what i should be doing too. "Rosario" a word in Spanish. the meaning of string(series) eg a string of cars/insults or it can also be the meaning of 'acabar como el ~ de la aurora' (to end in confusion)...thats what i'm in now...just like the strongest, and ferocious Vampires.when they chose to changed by trying to get off away the name of "blood suckers" and live well and peacefully with a human but yet in the end they would only become the problems,worries and fear of others...i hope the feelings in me the emotions dont control me...i want to be the one controlling them...till the end of time i want to be my normal usual self.hopefully...
today was a normal day maybe much more normal than others.i think its due to the boredom in me which i had - i stayed home the whole day...honey went to Sentosa with her usual gang.but somehow gotta little surprise from her - she travelled down to kovan to see me and accompany me.after 3 days we met again.3days somehow seems 3years to me...was happi to see her again though it was juz a short moment of having a dinner and some chatting.it's enough to erase every other things.she juz filled my heart.well perhaps i was realli true to say that i love her... coz i realli do...thanks for the surprise ya had gave me and juz for me, my dear...morning i would be off to church so may my lord be with ya to bless ya with his love and care.i too will shower ya wif my love and care... sarang hae yo <3

momento di happiness.moment del disastro
per esso in me non conosce mai che cosa è ha desiderato
per esso in me non conosce mai che cosa è fatto
giorni passed.devil grew.rosario
fame per blood.sirens della morte
il pozzo soltanto satan sa e la i presto sarà andata

breakin down...

2006-09-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

went down to tamasek tower to get my working schedules,cut-off and pay day infomation and other infomations required to know...will be startin my work on monday at KATONG SINGTEL...doin paperworks...it would be office hours Monday - Friday 9am - 6pm...$5.50 per hour...hmm nice pay too and the working hours are acceptable sio what can i still grudge about....today was travellin around the singapore.lol went to tanjong pagar 1st then to city hall to katong then to serangoon then to kovan...wow i travelled alot today...but i paid a price fer that too.i'm totally worn out..so tired mentally...plus the recent stress and impacts i got haiz...well no one can share the problem wif me coz its all on me...and i dont even how to let honey share my woes if she wants...dont worry i still can take it honey i wont be taken down sio fast juz that i know one day i sure gotta be lying down restlessly...and that day would be the day that i'm not able to take it animore liao...sio hopefully no more impacts and pressure to me please everione.
*kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao
kinou yowakatta jibun to ashita kitto tsuyoi jibun to
anata nara dare ni misete'ru watashi nara dare ni misereba ii

bored...bored...too bored...

2006-09-14T15:24:00.000+08:00

OMGOODNESS...wat a day i'm having.its god damn boring...nothing to do. what can i do to get out of this boredom.....woke up at 10plus today but found it was sio early then decided to get back to sleep again.woke up at 1plus again then came online...i even completed 4 online sudoku game...omg can see how bored am i...hmm honey goin to SENTOSA tis weekend wif her usual gang but seems i'm not invited sio its okie...and i got my own problems too sio nvm... =) guess i gotta rot the rest of my day at home ba ...hope to haf something to entertain me before i even decomposed...

contented...woots

2006-09-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

haha sorri forgets to add on to the previous entry...my honey got herself a C for her lousiest modules - ECONOMICS. haha at least she passed and tats enough... well honey oso passed every of her modules sio mean she didnt gotta take ani sub papers...wheee!!! CONGRATS HONEY..<3 muackiex. aniwae i was happi tat the things i thot her on the ECONS was useful and helpful to her...sorri honey tat i didnt realli helped all...but still wat's most important ish ya passed... <3

uncertainties...

2006-09-13T16:36:00.000+08:00

had a quarrel wif honey this afternoon..made her cry again...sorri honey.i noe the truth may be a big impact to ya but it too hurts me.or should i say i'm the most but nevertheless i haf not neglected ya in any ways sio dont worry coz i wont too... <3 hope not to make ya drop ya tears again...the hardships will be gone soon and always look on the bright side...heex =)
yeterday was valerie's and jennifer's birthday cleberation...it was held at marina bay for a steamboat dinner too...hmm lotsa of people was invited there around 16.honey went to my house to find me 1st though she wasnt able to remember where to alight but i rushed down to the bus stop to wait for her in case she alights at the wrong stop...still i was late and luckily she remembered the HOUGANG CC BUILDING...sorri honey =X went over to my house get some bite of the HOR FUN i prepared and even honey honey found it nice...whee!!!
we travelled down to marina bay together after meetin valerie at serangoon station...though we was late but unexpectedly there was much more whom are later like nick especially he was late fer a hour or more...*whacko&spanko him*
hmm me,honey,val and nick wasnt hungry and no appetite sio we didnt eat instead we went to a convenience shop to get some drinks and snacks and started workin around aimlessly and its BORING...cake-cuttin session was at around 9plus...which lasted around 45mins and birthday gals was of course being sabotaged...but onli val got some bits of the cream on her face...jennifer got away...well it was tym to be back home and all left in each separated ways. joyce,tandede,helmid and don went to ktv but too bad we wasnt able to join them...sio perhaps the next tym ba... =)

unforgettable...stabs,hurt,heartbroken

2006-09-11T18:55:00.000+08:00

pieces and pieces...juz like a jigsaw puzzle.uncertainty as ya dunno when ya would able to fix the puzzle.indecisive as ya dunno where ya should start to fix the puzzle.satisfaction for the short happiness ya haf after ya was able to put in a piece.hmm much more feelins are in me now....but choosin the jigsaw puzzle much more describin about me...moments of uncertainty when i wouldnt know what upcomings problems or things will happen on me...moments of indecisive when i wouldnt know what should i do or not and maybe what i should haf did or not...moments of satisfaction when i havin the happi times yet thinkin of how long it could have last...i cried i was hurt i'm heartbroken. how long could i still stands? i'm the jesus for the sacrifices i did.i'm the satan for the evils i haf done.i'm the human for there ish things which i wasnt able to fulfill and the shortcomings in me...i want a shoulder to cry on.i dun wanna to be cryin alone in the nite.its dark.its lonely.its scary. i dont wanna to wear my mask of happiness i wish to show my true feelings but i dont wanna to cause worries in others and unhappiness sio i chose to hide.hide in the world of darkness alone sufferin and torturin...well i guess i will be okie...dont worry abt me coz i am alreadi... =)

broken..bits and pieces

2006-09-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

long since bball till today. went wif xinyi,gerald,will,huihui and one more unknown guy at pasir ris...hmm was on time haha coz the previous night was stayin over at will's house wif honey...we was sio awake at there but Will was well asleep in his own dreamland,leavin both of us with nth to do and eat too... we both had a great laugh and it was loud and clear yet Will was nv once felt disturbed..lol wat a pig ya can be or a dead log...=X actualli after quite sometime then he was somehow awaken by our laughters. then he joined in with a damn funny joke at his half-awake mode...laugh and laugh awhile...wat happened next? can guessed though he was back to his dreamland again... boredom continues haha...but it was honey who bears it alone..coz around an hr or two it was my turn to get into my dreams haha...sorri honey... today honey ish goin to val's birthday celebration.hmm a day without her...wonderin how would i past my day then....sio aniwae we cant be together 24/7, we got our own things to do too sio i understand dont worri :)
was back home after bball and honey was at the celebration but due to some probs she left alone quietly from the group.i was shocked and worried tat i rushes down to find her right after receivin the msg.went down to collect her keys as she left at roy there then we over to find her..she cried i too but i hold it back...hmm hush hush my dear...sorri abt today hopefully ya got beta... at least ya gotta the chance to eat ya HOKKIEN MEE and plus ya fav sugar cane drink...well after the meal sent her home and back home...
hmmm...wat a day and much thots ran in mind.giving some real serious thinkins to them sio i will be frownin much haha...lol wat a crap tat had came out of my mouth...=X well i would be back wif another post real soon and hopefully the someone near ya reveals his/her real identity...

disgusted....eeee...

2006-09-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

OMGOODNESS gracious...jesus... :X what a disgusted day i had wif my honey...
hmmm i was suppose to wake up at 11plus today but ended wakin up at 1plus instead...sorri honey :P though late but we still went to bedok fer our brakfast cum lunch at bedok as planned...we was there findin for the nice porridge.we didnt found it but saw another stall sellin porridge too sio decided to get it.ordered the seafood porridge.it was served but the 'porridge' wasnt as all like a porridge...wat's much more ish the porridge was yuckie...disgusted man the taste.luckily we ordered Zui Kuay if not we would be on our empty stomach...
the 1st thing ended yet it wasnt the last of the day...much more disgusted incidents came up.after the meal went to bugis for a walk and drink at starbucks. was sio bored down there after window shoppin as honey didnt wanna buy anithing... =X proceed to tampines for movie -THE HOST. it was funni yet strange and disgustin...eeee the damn monster ws sio disgustin. when it vomits was sio er xin...cant tahan..damn it...luckily the endin calm us down but after the movie when walkin the mall saw a damn disgusted GAY!!! damnm er xin...the sight of "him" makes us pukes...OMG...wonder why would such an person exists in this world...YHeww...pukes!! honey wasnt feelin well wif these disgusted things...felt beta after a sweet bought[suggested by honey] thx. honey haf dinner at home but pukes after finishin half...hope honey ish okie.sayang sayang honey....huggies.dun let those "things" run in ya mind...put it into the bin...dump them off...juz put me in haha... =p aniwae honey i love ya...and 2molo we gotta see each other again sio happi...wheee...muackiex

tired.worn out yet contented

2006-09-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

woots finally back again wif my new post.yesterday went to get breakfast at outram park.was suppose to be at chinatown but the market was under renovation sio shifted to the temporary site at outram.got the best breakfast - glutinous rice and you tiao.haha best in SG.after that went straight to tamp to find honey and fetch her over to my house. fed honey as she was busi online chattin.actualli felt bad as woke her up sio earli.sorri honey...hmm after the breakfast i felt asleep till 2plus 3 then watched Wo Men Jie Hun Ba by He Jun Xiang wif honey. stayed till around 6 den we got out to cuppage to meet will,ivan and joyce fer partyworld...it was somehow a preparation fet joyce's upcomin auditions of JUE DUI SUPERSTAR on sat...i believe she can do it..joyce jiayou wor will be there to cheer ya up.dun disappoint us.the day ended at 11 after the singin session.sent honey to interchange nia.sorri honey.oso causes ya to be sio tired and got all the naggings from ya parents...sorri.plus no goin out today wif honey sianx sianx but nvm i still will be seein honey 2molo.wheee....muackiex

Contradictions

2006-09-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

well quite amazed by myself too as i haf been bloggin fer the past consecutive days...i have never been doin tat as frequent as now...haiz actualli i was suppose to be bloggin last nite but i wasnt in the mood fer it...cong cong i'm gettin worst at this...i know i wouldn't be able to get the words out.what should i do? haiz my feelings ish not ani better today, its still as bad or should i say its worst... :(
i look jesus arent i huh? or should i juz changed and become satan? hmmm but aniwae no worries i haf always been likedat.givin others happiness than myself
sacrificin and bear all the pains and sorrows myself.now after the incident i can confirm that my instinct was right. another day of emptiness,sorrows,loneliness...what's more coming?everything ish drainin out of me but i will still be holdin on. days numbered sio i should be doing what i should be doing and what i wished to do. (비감) aniwae i would be up again ba. going for work too later at 6pm.hope the day passes on peacefully

another sweet day...

2006-09-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

woots whee...!!! the consecutive 2nd day went out wif honey though wasnt juz the both of us but i'm juz as happi and contented...i luv ya honey!! <3>hmm pei honey go her channel committee meeting which lasted around an hour or so after lunch at KFC wif chris,rockie,will rinoa and my honey of course... sio long didnt see rinoa quite happi to see her again seems like long lost fren lol :P after the meeting we went shoppin. (the whole of orchard!!!) but we wasnt the ones doin it we was much more like 'budyguards'.Will and his fren was doin it. but got some window shoppin. our dinner was supposingly to be at foodcourt but it was too packed as it was the peak hour plus me and honey wasnt havin ani appetite fer ani food sio the group decided to get some finger foods,snacks and drinks then sat down and ate at the ampitheatre of TAKASHIMYA.. hmm sio nice havin honey wif me always. i juz love the moments. hmm but too bad the day gotta end sooner or later sio as long as i get to see her it would be juz as nice!! whee!!
P.S. HONEY te amo...

honey's the best

2006-09-02T02:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm today went out wif honey...yipree!! i juz love honey sio much haha. hmm went for a show - The Break-up bye vaugnes and jeniffer aniston was sio nice but the endin was an unexpected one.in the end they both didnt got back together(hmmm sio sad)...but it let me learnt that i muz cherish my honey more...i wouldnt wanna lose her. i wouldnt compare her as my ex as wat she thot coz i noe i luv her fer who she ish and not fer a replacement of my ex... honey thx for being there always for me...i love ya without ya things wouldnt be sio nice afterall....hmm we was suppose to haf our dinner after the show but it was peak hour and every restuarant was sio packed.decided then to get to raffles city walk and got calamari and fried curry chicken after slackin at esplanade...meet my fren JOHN to pass him $$$ then sent honey back home. i actualli got a selfish thinkin - to occupy honey forever coz i nid her...sounds that i cant live without her but indeed i am...honey lets built a bright future and be together as long as we could live. sarang heyo

how stupid could i still get...

2006-08-17T02:01:00.000+08:00

omg i haven notice i have not posted for a month...no wonder felicia was !!!$@#%^&*!@#$% me haha :P oops i was sio silly to have forget my bloggie address and to think gotta have felicia tell me my own bloggie address...omg what have the world become? have i gone insane or haf i gotten the STM disease from felicia...wahahaha. aniwae recently was sio addicted to something. it was a song.a OST of a movie - The Fast and The Furious:Tokyo Drift. the song title was - Be In Tokyo by Teriyaki Boyz... and the introduction was the ding ding ding from the xylophone then i was keep DING DING DING,DING DING DING haha my frenx cant tahan me Wheee!!
now here come's the lyrics and i will end if not i goin to ding ding ding again liao haha

The Fast and The Furious:Tokyo Drift OST - BE IN TOKYO by teriyaki boyz
I wonder if you know,
How they live in Tokyo,
If you see me then you mean it
Then you know you have to go.
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
(repeat)
Irasha ii, omachidou sama,
kenso mamire no konomachi no ensou dama,
tamani ichido tsuite oide,
sekaijyu miru yo suruhodona goukana,
Japan, Ichiban,
Jump around saruchie no deban,
Teriyaki Boyz in the place to be,
Misete yarou (hai!) in the VIP.

Many many diamonds danglin,
Bag full of money we stranglin,
Hate me, fry me, bake me, try me,
All the above 'cause you can't get in,
I don't want no problem,
Because me professional,
Make you, shake your ketsu, (Thank you!)
Haters take it personal.

Like Kanada tai tetsu o now,
Drop it on lets go now (now),
Na nachima maeni netsu wo hassan,
Lets not chiki chima over,
Lets go nets go,
Tsuki iro over every color,
Esgo (e~? sugoi),
Need you, 'walk out' jyanai, negro,
New dekisora watashi mo big boy.

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Tokyo,
If you see me then you mean it
Then you know you have to go.
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
(repeat)

(Phone rings)

Hai, Watashi Teriyaki, BOYS,
Atteyuuma ni fukitobasu, NOISE,
Manshini shitemasu de ghe-tto! Banou kazumo fuete imasu,
Beishiku wa surprise, DE,
Maji mainichiga abunai, TTE,
Ninja fuu Kenja fuu,
Dakedo (Geisha!),
Wait! From the rocks say,
Tada no shita.

You should see me in the parking lot,
7-11 is the spot,
Fights with wings and shiny things,
And lions, tigers, bears, Oh my ride,
We're furious and fast,
Super sonic like JJ Phat,
And we rock cuz the wheels are fly,
Can't beat that with a baseball bat.

Like a ka(ahn)kiyou tokasa,
Mateba ii zehi soap site yo,
Intercept shite fuck site,
teki hanzai wa banzai,
Hora pants down,
From a back up on the post,
Dou itasu? kyou wa four points,
From far east coast to Dousa sai,
(watashi no gaisudou!)

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Tokyo,
If you see me then you mean it
Then you know you have to go.
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
(repeat)

Yea, Japan mainichi doki doki desu,
Heat island tobi tobi de,
Moeruyou ni shite bochi bochi na,
Tamanegi dasasou kochi kochi eh
Heat up de dou risou,
Machijyu subette no-rikon.
Mecha kawarimondante sa?
fool, gocha gocha fast an' furious!

It's gotta be the shoes,
Gotta be the furs,
That's why ladies choose me,
All up in the news,
'Cause we so cute,
That's why we so huge,
Harajuku girls know how I feel,
They respect, I keeps it real.
Not a Chinaman 'cause I ain't from China man...
I am Japan man.

(Wa ta shi wa, tokyo suki,)
Wa ta shi no, Kuruma suteki)
You see him come and go out of the black Benz SLR.

(A na ta mo, tokyo suki)
I wonder where he get that kind of money?

(A na ta no, kuruma suteki.)
Don't worry about it. Lets Go.

I wonder if you know,
How they live in Tokyo,
If you see me then you mean it
Then you know you have to go.
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)

-Wonder if you know,
How they live in Tokyo,
If you see me then you mean it
Then you know you have to go.
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious! (Kitaa!) (Drift, Drift, Drift)

away for JAPAN!!

2006-07-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

woots guessed ya all have seen my nick ba and wonderin what izzit....sio i have decided to keep it a secret then till i left haha :P aniwae the week before i had received an invitation over to a japan designin company to get trainin and work under them...it would be in tokyo. sio happy to be recognized of my talent and skills haha and also it had always been my dream to live in japan but its a tough decision to make afterall. my friends,family and buddies.of course there ish still someone out there i would be missin most whom i would keep it a secret...onli felicia noes it haha.seems like every single of my things would be known to felicia haha. after 2weeks of consideration i decided to go over...as for migration i will make the decision after a period of time over there.sio now i can onli wait for approval from government and off i go to japan haha and its TOKYO... i have planned to travel the whole japan. food from okkaido,great scenery from mount fuji and alot alot...sio i will keep ya all update on the outcome of my trip haha sio do take note wor especially felicia coz ya sure gotta miss me the most :P and sharon too....

omG....

2006-07-01T07:53:00.000+08:00

omg...i wouldnt haf know that i haf not post for one month till i went to my blog page just now. hmm sorri everione out there especially [Cong Cong] haha but i doubt ya haf time to view even if i post...our big business woman...haha lol :p aniwae in this month of june haf been busi...had to go work,go out with frenz coz of sio mani june babies(i'm oso one of them bleahx),sleep of coz and more sleep!!! haha i love to ROT!!! but recently havin insomnia...haiz cong cong pls save me pls grant me some sleep haha aniwae today would be another busy day gotta go down collect my newly made IC coz of the previous lost wallet incident den to church talk den still got my bbq...cong cong ya had influenced me.i haf become a business man as well liao haha.so i tink i will end here liao and this month i sure will post more coz my total posts ish sio patheti.damn little...

woRn out....

2006-05-30T04:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm...after so long i'm finally back to my bloggi again...have been busy and tired recently.tat makes the reason for me not to blog and online haha :P but aniwae guys outcha shlould be glad tat i'm back again and ya will have new interesting entries to read...sio do take notice wor...i'm glad to say tat I"M FINALLY WORKING!!!its a mixed feeling i'm having for being able to work. i was happy to be able to earn $$$ and keep myself occupied but at the same time i got tireness and laziness from the the work.no matter wat it is i will hold up this job as long as i'm able to ba...cant just sit around and slacking all day long...and haf been unable to wake up some days for school but its common for me though lol haha.i felt relieved knowing sharon had gotten used to her JC life...pity tat felicia ish crowded up with her projects+assignments and her family problems and yet i cant help her in any way...happy tat my brother ish finally returning home sio i would not be lonely as before...felt sad tat my heart ish lost of relationship...felt sianx tat everyone was OCCUPIED with their things and schools and not being able to pei wo...haha kidding guys i wont be sio petty and will understand tat...it had been a few months since i have been out wif aaron reno and bunch...misses them .my usual gang afterall but haix nvm we will still get back once again.hope to see ya guys soon.11th june would be my holiday but its just one week sianx....and also forget this not - MY BIRTHDAY ISH DRAWING NEAR!!!19more days!! remember my birthday wor if not......*haRbiShXx* haha kidding aniwae used not celebrating since i have not been doing it since young...iwill put an end to this entry then.be back for another entry soon ba....

exhausted...tiring but contented

2006-04-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back to blog again...was sio busi tis week as said previously.went around gettin physics and chem textbooks for my classmates and ended up travellin the whole of singapore(OMG)!!got a nite went all the way down to sembawang to get the books.was sio far but i needed the books sio haf to travel down.the followin day went to lavender den to sembawang to bugis to kovan den to hougang waas like sio tired and never gotta chance to haf my meals till nite time when haf my dinner wif ivy and liming.i was realli exhausted but finally i gotta the books fer them(classmates) yet another problem came about.how am i goin to carry all the books to skol? all the way down to dhoby ghaut!!haix nvm most to most cal them to come my house collect haha :P
hmm yesterday went fer a job interview - printer tester. it was testin of printers of course bleahx it was testin of both hardware and software of the printers and its 5-day permanent shift work...hopefully can get the shift at 2.30-10.30 den would not clash with my skol and the pay ish $6/hr(acceptable) still got trainin sio can learn new things YEAH!! heex hpefully i would get the job wish me good luck haha

loneiness

2006-04-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

its been a month since i last blog...bet feli would be sio happy as she would haf things to read...haha :p everione haf started their poly life and some are startin next week.hope everione adapt to their new environment and get along wif their new frenx too but...FORGET ME NOT tats fer sure...the past one and a half week haf not been stayin at home.had some fights and quarrels with my parents.haix they could never understand me .hope they do.was stayin at justin's house in tat week.(hmm thanks justin fer allowin my nonsense and unusual nite life and occupyin ya bed haha)felt that distance between me and everione ish getting further and further...have not been getting out with the usual gang fer quite some time realli wondering how they doing but as long as they are fine i would be glad.and have not been chatting with feli bet she would be blaming me for leaving her alone but i'm sure she ish understanding and wouldn't be tat petty ba?everione tink after this post may haf to wait a longer tym for the next as i tink i would be busi ba...sio happi waiting haha....

sadness,happiness.emptiness.

2006-03-29T00:17:00.000+08:00

24march2006
i'm kinda ditched...felt sio much like a stab into my heart.i dunno why i still nt givin ya up though i was reali reali hurt.perhaps i had put in my true luv in ya.i deserve it actuali fer wat i had done in the past and now.i regretted sio long fer the mistake i made last time.and now i made another mistake.hmm seems tat ya r sio stress in ya jc life hope ya will bypass it.and yet i'm nt decreasin ya stress instead i'm addin on to it(haix)...
dun force urself as long as ya haf tried ya best...i like the smile ya always wore hope ya still be wearin it... though "sorri" was what i hated others to say but yet i was the one always sayin it.i'm sorri nt being able to be wif ya when ya needed someone.i'm sorri to haf stressed ya.i'm sorri to haf make ya sad.i'm sorri fer everithing.but still wif the sorri i wont be gettin ya back.
27march2006
it's finally FELICIA's birthday.lol.hmm gotta wish her a "happy birthday" on 00:00am haha...wonderin would i be the 1st one to wish her but nt important lah as long as she ish happi...hmm by right i should be the one gettin her the flowers den janice they all got it fer her le den make no point fer me to gif her liao...den thot of bears but the guys in her class got it fer her too..(oh my goodness sucha coincidence)den in the end i didnt get her anithing but still tinkin tat i should get her something.me and aaron was out havin dinner at chomp chomp(wasnt opened) sio we had to go to the hawker around the corner fer our meals.den while feli was out celebratin her birthday and she was complainin while travellin to marina bay..haha "i'm sio hungry sio far the distance.i'm sio tired" hmm but aniwae glad to know she enjoyed her birthday bleahx.Sweet seventeen fer ya, Feli..thx fer ya presence when i was down.and even when i was sio excited when i foound my songs haha

puzzled..sad..miserable

2006-03-24T11:26:00.000+08:00

i dont know should i jump to conclusion on it annortx...i'm afraid that the history will repeat itself again..haix
i'm wonderin who ya was referrin at ya blog but i dare not make a guess.i cant even figure out what's our relationship now but i treatin ya as my gf.i dont know what's in ya currently i do realli want to know it.hmm i should not haf expected sio much.i always noe tis "GREAT EXPECTATIONS BRINGS GREATER DISAPPOINTMENT".sio i realli didnt expect more than juz a simple goin out with ya but my heart was no longer wif me anymore.it was wif ya all awhile since the day i know ya...i dont know what am i feeling now.i'm sio confused.it's such a complicated feeling.there was sadness.emptiness.lost.i dont know what am i now... i realli realli hope that we can still be together or should i say we are both alreadi together i hope ya can tel me sharon...

sick.pukin.drunk

2006-03-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite dragged along 2 of my classmates and justin along for a drink at outram.at a ktv pub.i was down juz sio down.i juz wanna get myself drunk.i dont know why am i missin her sio much.after 779days since she was gone from my life i haf never once forgotten abt her though in between the days i had 2 gfs but the reasons for the breakups was always her.my fren said i'm foolish.stupid.juz to hang on my life there and not continue to look forward and move on.but i would juz say she made a great impact in my life.the times wif her was the most beautiful.wif her i can be myself i did not haf to put up a strong front.i love her.she was the onli one i was lovin all while juz tat i never realise it in the past.we ordered a bottle of chivas and a jug of beer.i juz drank and drank.i puke 2 times.both wif lots of blood.hmm guess should be nothing wrong wif me ba.i juz wanna her back in my life.fer sio long i haf regretted of my mistake.fer sio long i haf been thinking of her.juz fer her to back wif me i dont mind changing.i can quit drinking.gambling.smoking.and every of my bad habits.juz simply fer her.as long as she is willing to re-accept me and give me one more chance.

i'm sorri sharon fer wat i had done.i'm willing to seek ya forgiveness and change to haf ya back.though mani promise are broken but i would still promise ya tat i would help ya gain back ya faith.sharon i love ya....

OncE again...

2006-03-19T15:28:00.000+08:00

"are we back together again?" it keep flashes in my mind.it haf been sio long since we get out together.juz the both of us but yet tis time i'm unable to say are we in a relationship or are we still juz friends...i'm sure ya noe what's in me.how i felt always towards ya.why i had been likedat. ITS YOU.the reason for my changes.fer the things i did fer ya.fer everything - ITS YOU! actually i didnt expect to be able to hold ya hands again.but each time i do it it reminds me of our past.our great times.our fun and laughter shared.our quarrels.and our brokeups.and too it reminds me of my stupidity.my foolness.my regretness.i wanted ya to back in my heart.the place which was once urs and always be.ya was my life.my world.a part of me tat couldnt be gone.without ya my life would be in a mess and sadness.my world would be incomplete.yesterday my tears was at the verge of fallin but i held it back.i dont want ya to see my sadness.it realli felt sio great to be wif ya.i never wanted to put down ya hand.i dont want to leave ya.i juz wanted to be by ya side but it could never be happenin.
SWEET MEMORIES - i need ya.i'm beautifully broken.i miss ya. Sarang heyo jiu zhi hui dui ni shuo.
sharon i realli hope to be able to say to ya I LOVE YA.i dont want to regret again by not able to say it to ya before i leave....

Reconciling

2006-03-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

hmm how should i describe my feelings today? happi?grateful? maybe i should juz say tat i was havin a complicated feeling today..sio long since i ever get out and chat wif gwenda so much today.sio sweet of her as i was the 1st person she asked fer haha :P though again the reason fer her nt to call me immediately was tat she didnt save mine no. in her current SIM card but still she gt it from j poh and nt from poh chuan if nt i wouldnt even get to see her today or animore coz tis possibly the last tym she ish back in singapore le..sniff sniff haha lol hmm she's gettin to australia after her O tis year and would not be able to see her liao if not maybe after a veri long time ba.aniwae nice chattin to her and glad to hear tat she's doin great though there may be some problems here and there but believe she wont be down tat easily de..gwenda jiayou fer ya grade 10(O level) tis year and fer me too kakaka of coz hope she can find her prince charmin one day..

a special day - ya birthday

2006-03-09T13:03:00.000+08:00

9 march 2006...ya birthday ish here again.but tis birthday seems much more meanin than others as it may decide on our fate...hmm after 3years i still regret wat i had done.ya r nt at fault but it was me who ish such a fool.though i may haf wif other gals in these 3years but time and time the reason fer the breakups ish ya..i juz thot i cld washed ya off my mind i thot i wld nv miss ya when i dun see ya animore but i'm wronged. "Absence Makes the Heart Fonder" it indeed decribe best out of me...i noe we may nt be able to get back together again but still i dun wanna gif up.i would always be there fer ya unless ya say ya dun nid me anim0re.i dun juz like ya.but loves ya.watever the outcome ish between us i would gladly accept it and too wish ya would be always be happi...

introduction

2006-03-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

hiiee...i'm alex juz to get make a self intro if anione who wish to noe me...haha i noe i'm being lame and crappy hmm...tis bloggi ish a new one i juz created today.actualli i gt a blog le juz tat i kinda haf forgotten the link and i wanna start a new one too...:p and todae ish my 1st day of work too...but felt being cheated haha coz they called to ask me down fer work today and yet it turn out to be an interview followed by watchin of 6 videotapes(bored_sianx_lame) abt the jobs and environment etc. of the cinema...but no matter wat i still gt the job haha.and wld be goin down fer work at 12 tomorrow. sio everione outcha look out fer my upcoming posts...mani mani more are comin bleahx =D coz i'm goin to end of here fer my 1st post of my new bloggi...cyaz