having ya was a bleesing to me.it was sio magical,sio beautiful.nevertheless we knew we had something in common - "we lurvve each other".we came sio far here, we endured sio much, what other things we have not encountered though the problems we had may not be the worse compared to others but still we both came to this point together,hand in hand,heart to heart...
i gotta face the truth.it would be a tough decision for ya to make but i said it, i will respect ya decision no matter what it may be,simply because i luv ya. there's no eternity in this world.there's no forever or never ending in this world.sio everything in this world will always come to an end.its too same fer ya and me but i noe and i believe that we would be together for as long.maybe till the end of our time.well i hope ya dun take the matter too serious.its still long or maybe it would never happen at all. "Follow what ya heart says,its always the right thing" - thats what i always said to others but i believe in it sio too did it...i followed.my heart says i love ya.honey thanks for being there always the 1st promise to ya will always stands sio dun worry that i will be leaving... =)
today went out with honey for lunch.somehow a quite late one at around 2plus due to my delay...sorri honey to have make ya hungry,mi ahn hae yo...we gotten KFC as had been long since ate it coz i dun tend to like fastfood that much but i misses cheese fries haha...talked quite alot on some issues.well was bored sio decided to window shop after the meal...gotten the sweets at MINI TOON again haha. sio nice and i'm simply loving it...honey didnt ate much of it today.not her usual self.maybe ish because she's tinking about the things ba...dun tink sio much wor no worries....went to TIMES too to read some magazine and i was finding a new set of Tarot Cards,honey bought her I ZHOU KHAN[my hanyu pinyin abit lousi] too...window shop around at TM then CENTURY SQUARE before heading back home but today was much more special... as i walked honey home wheee!!! was sio relaxing and nice...next tym can walk again haha.. honey waited bus with me before she headed back home.muackiex.thought of so much things today...was thinking about all the moments had and spent with honey...i luv her...kam sa hae yo honey for being wif me...<3<3<3
{ 6:58 pm }
ohh my ohh my...when did the "sai lang" (shit man) de nick came on to my head? when did i became one? lol started from honey who KNS me then to hui hui who KNS me as well as calling me "sai lang" plus lotsa of other nicknames...what do i exactly look like?today gerald took off again...left alone once again.in a office bigger than my house alone.eating lunch alone.doin work alone.*chill* and the air-con ish realli cold...damn 2molo would be my revenge time - take off and leave gerald alone haha =p i'm bad arent i? well i too sick today sio fair and square...=X
luckily i had honey to sms with me the whole day even till i off from work...at nite went over to pasir ris to teach hui hui biology as she would be having her paper 2molo..kanbate =) hopefully the notes i had summarised for ya ish useful...muz do well if not will shows that i'm a bad teacher haha....recently kinda of relieved quite alot of stress and my burden seems much more lighter...wondering why and what's the reason behind it?but for one thing i can confirm ish HONEY is one and the most important factor behind it...i luv ya my dear honey <3 thanks for always been there for me.ya absence makes my heart fonders.misses ya lotsa but 2molo will haf lunch wif ya liao...the long awaited one haha yeah!!! muackiex...te amo
{ 12:28 am }
wheee.....i'm finally home!!!HOME SWEET HOME!!!the first tym reachin home that earli after work but guess that today would be the onli day having this coz i haf completed all the indexing which are in the server...haha sio happi but this means tat i gotta do the scanning job...sniff sniff =X today i hit the record of mine wondering haf i hit gerald's one...i did 370 indexing.tats alot man.even melvin my 'boss' was some how shocked to hear it when i updated him.lol guessed i had did a great job then...hehe i should stop praising myself if not people outcha would be waiting to chop me and booing me...=x today was sio bored but luckily brought the discs to haf a better and comfortable environment for working haha. music ish my life.without it life would be had been sio dull juz like a black and white photo lol.and the cause of today's boredom ish - GERALD!!! he took off...UrghHH!!! cant wait to squeeze everything out of him haha kidding =p
at least he chose the right date to take off so i wouldnt gotta haf a lonely lunch...sounded sio sad huh?i had my church sisters and frenx to haf lunch wif me plus chris's mom cooked CURRY CHICKEN for us! sio nice and delicious..yum yum! i missing it again should haf packet it home... =p thankx chris and the mom...(next tym call ya to order the curry haha)
well friday ish finally coming to an end = the working days of mine fer this week ended too... haha sio happi at least i can sleep peacefully.no more early waking ups.no more ringing of alarm clock.no more travelling long distance.most importantly ish no more facing the computer and doing indexing and scanning haha but all these happiness will onli last 2 days....=( nightmare will be back on monday again.seems that i'm saying that my job was like a shit? haha dont get it wrong everione juz that i'm worn out from the work loads sio no worries feel free to work for SINGTEL especially...hehe ltr getting to sembawang and maybe can drive again liao wheee.... well i will be back fer more updates...but please do tag me...if not tym for massacre haha...
{ 7:07 pm }
worn out with the work at singtel...due to lack of sleep and plus facing the com every single minute.making my eyes sio tired. well sio shocked that i could complete 1000 plus of blueprints indexing in 4days plus oso stamping more than 500plus of blueprints too and there ish still numerous scannings...seems i'm sio hardworking haha =p aniwae i finally understand why gerald had been complaining about the job but he would no longer be bored as he got me to keep him accompany! haha hopefully 2molo can set a record of finishin 500 indexing haha...then i would be in guiness world record. *bleahx*
well today honey went fer melvin's operation. and until evening tym after i off from work she came and met me for dinner...gotten her craving fulfilled - fish n' chips...she still got much more cravings...hokkien mee, earthquake and lotsa...well wait till we both can haf same free tym then ba...2molo honey ish goin out wif melvin again..hmm they watchin movie - forbidden siren as from honey said.guessed i can onli watch that movie alone next tym.hmm gotta wake up earli fer work 2molo sio its beddie tym....!!!! cya allz around then..
{ 11:35 pm }
woots there ish sio mani upcoming events haha...sio excited and looking forward for them. wells O level ish around the corner sio does A levels, promos exams of JCs, PSLE and other final year examinations...hmm good luck to all my frenx and buddies for ya upcoming exams..kanbate =)hmm i was sayin about the upcoming events...out of all there would be 3 POTLUCK. OMGOODNESS sio much of it...everione would be goin crazy about my cake... =p and kiat sim I DUN CARE, YA WILL STILL BRING COOKED FOOD EVEN IF YA GOT SKOL HAHA!!! one ish of my primary skol gathering,one ish WILL "daddie" sentosa de another one ish church de.lol guess i would haf a good life hehe...other events would be nite cycling, ice-skating and others to be confirmed. well well well i'm sio happi to be invited to sio mani events.felt sio honoured some how haha =p aniwae 2molo honey would be goin to melvin's operation.and in the nite ym would be coming to hougang fer dinner wif me to compensate the date she cancelled last minute today.she will be treatin haha...muackiex honey i noe ya luv me but i lurvve ya too..<3 watever it ish my trust will always be in ya...huggies
{ 12:12 am }
went to church this mornin...omg it was so rare for me to go.i was shocked myself too but i was able to make it because i sacrifices my sleepin time for it.haha =P aniwae i'm glad i went as i felt that i was not alone bearing my burdens and stress...it was much more a relieve to myself.i finally felt peace in me...after coming back home from the church.went into a deep long sleep...felt sio great and if my parents didnt woke me up i should haf slept till the next morning ba...2molo would be my 1st day of my new job...wheee and i'm working wif gerald haha i loving it...haha =p hmmm cong cong wish me good luck =0 my honey too <3
{ 11:43 pm }
hmmm kinda sio sad in me yet it wasnt can be said as sad too...its juz a mixed feeling with sadness emptiness loneliness lost. all these feelings are juz around...i juz dunno what i wanted and what i should be doing too. "Rosario" a word in Spanish. the meaning of string(series) eg a string of cars/insults or it can also be the meaning of 'acabar como el ~ de la aurora' (to end in confusion)...thats what i'm in now...just like the strongest, and ferocious Vampires.when they chose to changed by trying to get off away the name of "blood suckers" and live well and peacefully with a human but yet in the end they would only become the problems,worries and fear of others...i hope the feelings in me the emotions dont control me...i want to be the one controlling them...till the end of time i want to be my normal usual self.hopefully...today was a normal day maybe much more normal than others.i think its due to the boredom in me which i had - i stayed home the whole day...honey went to Sentosa with her usual gang.but somehow gotta little surprise from her - she travelled down to kovan to see me and accompany me.after 3 days we met again.3days somehow seems 3years to me...was happi to see her again though it was juz a short moment of having a dinner and some chatting.it's enough to erase every other things.she juz filled my heart.well perhaps i was realli true to say that i love her... coz i realli do...thanks for the surprise ya had gave me and juz for me, my dear...morning i would be off to church so may my lord be with ya to bless ya with his love and care.i too will shower ya wif my love and care... sarang hae yo <3momento di happiness.moment del disastroper esso in me non conosce mai che cosa è ha desideratoper esso in me non conosce mai che cosa è fattogiorni passed.devil grew.rosariofame per blood.sirens della morteil pozzo soltanto satan sa e la i presto sarà andata
{ 1:39 am }
went down to tamasek tower to get my working schedules,cut-off and pay day infomation and other infomations required to know...will be startin my work on monday at KATONG SINGTEL...doin paperworks...it would be office hours Monday - Friday 9am - 6pm...$5.50 per hour...hmm nice pay too and the working hours are acceptable sio what can i still grudge about....today was travellin around the singapore.lol went to tanjong pagar 1st then to city hall to katong then to serangoon then to kovan...wow i travelled alot today...but i paid a price fer that too.i'm totally worn out..so tired mentally...plus the recent stress and impacts i got haiz...well no one can share the problem wif me coz its all on me...and i dont even how to let honey share my woes if she wants...dont worry i still can take it honey i wont be taken down sio fast juz that i know one day i sure gotta be lying down restlessly...and that day would be the day that i'm not able to take it animore liao...sio hopefully no more impacts and pressure to me please everione.
*kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao
kinou yowakatta jibun to ashita kitto tsuyoi jibun to
anata nara dare ni misete'ru watashi nara dare ni misereba ii
{ 9:56 pm }
OMGOODNESS...wat a day i'm having.its god damn boring...nothing to do. what can i do to get out of this boredom.....woke up at 10plus today but found it was sio early then decided to get back to sleep again.woke up at 1plus again then came online...i even completed 4 online sudoku game...omg can see how bored am i...hmm honey goin to SENTOSA tis weekend wif her usual gang but seems i'm not invited sio its okie...and i got my own problems too sio nvm... =) guess i gotta rot the rest of my day at home ba ...hope to haf something to entertain me before i even decomposed...
{ 3:24 pm }
haha sorri forgets to add on to the previous entry...my honey got herself a C for her lousiest modules - ECONOMICS. haha at least she passed and tats enough... well honey oso passed every of her modules sio mean she didnt gotta take ani sub papers...wheee!!! CONGRATS HONEY..<3 muackiex. aniwae i was happi tat the things i thot her on the ECONS was useful and helpful to her...sorri honey tat i didnt realli helped all...but still wat's most important ish ya passed... <3
{ 4:59 pm }
had a quarrel wif honey this afternoon..made her cry again...sorri honey.i noe the truth may be a big impact to ya but it too hurts me.or should i say i'm the most but nevertheless i haf not neglected ya in any ways sio dont worry coz i wont too... <3 hope not to make ya drop ya tears again...the hardships will be gone soon and always look on the bright side...heex =)yeterday was valerie's and jennifer's birthday cleberation...it was held at marina bay for a steamboat dinner too...hmm lotsa of people was invited there around 16.honey went to my house to find me 1st though she wasnt able to remember where to alight but i rushed down to the bus stop to wait for her in case she alights at the wrong stop...still i was late and luckily she remembered the HOUGANG CC BUILDING...sorri honey =X went over to my house get some bite of the HOR FUN i prepared and even honey honey found it nice...whee!!!we travelled down to marina bay together after meetin valerie at serangoon station...though we was late but unexpectedly there was much more whom are later like nick especially he was late fer a hour or more...*whacko&spanko him*hmm me,honey,val and nick wasnt hungry and no appetite sio we didnt eat instead we went to a convenience shop to get some drinks and snacks and started workin around aimlessly and its BORING...cake-cuttin session was at around 9plus...which lasted around 45mins and birthday gals was of course being sabotaged...but onli val got some bits of the cream on her face...jennifer got away...well it was tym to be back home and all left in each separated ways. joyce,tandede,helmid and don went to ktv but too bad we wasnt able to join them...sio perhaps the next tym ba... =)
{ 4:36 pm }
pieces and pieces...juz like a jigsaw puzzle.uncertainty as ya dunno when ya would able to fix the puzzle.indecisive as ya dunno where ya should start to fix the puzzle.satisfaction for the short happiness ya haf after ya was able to put in a piece.hmm much more feelins are in me now....but choosin the jigsaw puzzle much more describin about me...moments of uncertainty when i wouldnt know what upcomings problems or things will happen on me...moments of indecisive when i wouldnt know what should i do or not and maybe what i should haf did or not...moments of satisfaction when i havin the happi times yet thinkin of how long it could have last...i cried i was hurt i'm heartbroken. how long could i still stands? i'm the jesus for the sacrifices i did.i'm the satan for the evils i haf done.i'm the human for there ish things which i wasnt able to fulfill and the shortcomings in me...i want a shoulder to cry on.i dun wanna to be cryin alone in the nite.its dark.its lonely.its scary. i dont wanna to wear my mask of happiness i wish to show my true feelings but i dont wanna to cause worries in others and unhappiness sio i chose to hide.hide in the world of darkness alone sufferin and torturin...well i guess i will be okie...dont worry abt me coz i am alreadi... =)
{ 6:55 pm }
long since bball till today. went wif xinyi,gerald,will,huihui and one more unknown guy at pasir ris...hmm was on time haha coz the previous night was stayin over at will's house wif honey...we was sio awake at there but Will was well asleep in his own dreamland,leavin both of us with nth to do and eat too... we both had a great laugh and it was loud and clear yet Will was nv once felt disturbed..lol wat a pig ya can be or a dead log...=X actualli after quite sometime then he was somehow awaken by our laughters. then he joined in with a damn funny joke at his half-awake mode...laugh and laugh awhile...wat happened next? can guessed though he was back to his dreamland again... boredom continues haha...but it was honey who bears it alone..coz around an hr or two it was my turn to get into my dreams haha...sorri honey... today honey ish goin to val's birthday celebration.hmm a day without her...wonderin how would i past my day then....sio aniwae we cant be together 24/7, we got our own things to do too sio i understand dont worri :)
was back home after bball and honey was at the celebration but due to some probs she left alone quietly from the group.i was shocked and worried tat i rushes down to find her right after receivin the msg.went down to collect her keys as she left at roy there then we over to find her..she cried i too but i hold it back...hmm hush hush my dear...sorri abt today hopefully ya got beta... at least ya gotta the chance to eat ya HOKKIEN MEE and plus ya fav sugar cane drink...well after the meal sent her home and back home...
hmmm...wat a day and much thots ran in mind.giving some real serious thinkins to them sio i will be frownin much haha...lol wat a crap tat had came out of my mouth...=X well i would be back wif another post real soon and hopefully the someone near ya reveals his/her real identity...
{ 11:27 pm }
OMGOODNESS gracious...jesus... :X what a disgusted day i had wif my honey...
hmmm i was suppose to wake up at 11plus today but ended wakin up at 1plus instead...sorri honey :P though late but we still went to bedok fer our brakfast cum lunch at bedok as planned...we was there findin for the nice porridge.we didnt found it but saw another stall sellin porridge too sio decided to get it.ordered the seafood porridge.it was served but the 'porridge' wasnt as all like a porridge...wat's much more ish the porridge was yuckie...disgusted man the taste.luckily we ordered Zui Kuay if not we would be on our empty stomach...
the 1st thing ended yet it wasnt the last of the day...much more disgusted incidents came up.after the meal went to bugis for a walk and drink at starbucks. was sio bored down there after window shoppin as honey didnt wanna buy anithing... =X proceed to tampines for movie -THE HOST. it was funni yet strange and disgustin...eeee the damn monster ws sio disgustin. when it vomits was sio er xin...cant tahan..damn it...luckily the endin calm us down but after the movie when walkin the mall saw a damn disgusted GAY!!! damnm er xin...the sight of "him" makes us pukes...OMG...wonder why would such an person exists in this world...YHeww...pukes!! honey wasnt feelin well wif these disgusted things...felt beta after a sweet bought[suggested by honey] thx. honey haf dinner at home but pukes after finishin half...hope honey ish okie.sayang sayang honey....huggies.dun let those "things" run in ya mind...put it into the bin...dump them off...juz put me in haha... =p aniwae honey i love ya...and 2molo we gotta see each other again sio happi...wheee...muackiex
{ 10:42 pm }
woots finally back again wif my new post.yesterday went to get breakfast at outram park.was suppose to be at chinatown but the market was under renovation sio shifted to the temporary site at outram.got the best breakfast - glutinous rice and you tiao.haha best in SG.after that went straight to tamp to find honey and fetch her over to my house. fed honey as she was busi online chattin.actualli felt bad as woke her up sio earli.sorri honey...hmm after the breakfast i felt asleep till 2plus 3 then watched Wo Men Jie Hun Ba by He Jun Xiang wif honey. stayed till around 6 den we got out to cuppage to meet will,ivan and joyce fer partyworld...it was somehow a preparation fet joyce's upcomin auditions of JUE DUI SUPERSTAR on sat...i believe she can do it..joyce jiayou wor will be there to cheer ya up.dun disappoint us.the day ended at 11 after the singin session.sent honey to interchange nia.sorri honey.oso causes ya to be sio tired and got all the naggings from ya parents...sorri.plus no goin out today wif honey sianx sianx but nvm i still will be seein honey 2molo.wheee....muackiex
{ 2:13 pm }
well quite amazed by myself too as i haf been bloggin fer the past consecutive days...i have never been doin tat as frequent as now...haiz actualli i was suppose to be bloggin last nite but i wasnt in the mood fer it...cong cong i'm gettin worst at this...i know i wouldn't be able to get the words out.what should i do? haiz my feelings ish not ani better today, its still as bad or should i say its worst... :(
i look jesus arent i huh? or should i juz changed and become satan? hmmm but aniwae no worries i haf always been likedat.givin others happiness than myself
sacrificin and bear all the pains and sorrows myself.now after the incident i can confirm that my instinct was right. another day of emptiness,sorrows,loneliness...what's more coming?everything ish drainin out of me but i will still be holdin on. days numbered sio i should be doing what i should be doing and what i wished to do. (
비감) aniwae i would be up again ba. going for work too later at 6pm.hope the day passes on peacefully
{ 3:13 pm }
woots whee...!!! the consecutive 2nd day went out wif honey though wasnt juz the both of us but i'm juz as happi and contented...i luv ya honey!! <3>hmm pei honey go her channel committee meeting which lasted around an hour or so after lunch at KFC wif chris,rockie,will rinoa and my honey of course... sio long didnt see rinoa quite happi to see her again seems like long lost fren lol :P after the meeting we went shoppin. (the whole of orchard!!!) but we wasnt the ones doin it we was much more like 'budyguards'.Will and his fren was doin it. but got some window shoppin. our dinner was supposingly to be at foodcourt but it was too packed as it was the peak hour plus me and honey wasnt havin ani appetite fer ani food sio the group decided to get some finger foods,snacks and drinks then sat down and ate at the ampitheatre of TAKASHIMYA.. hmm sio nice havin honey wif me always. i juz love the moments. hmm but too bad the day gotta end sooner or later sio as long as i get to see her it would be juz as nice!! whee!!
P.S. HONEY te amo...
{ 1:32 am }
hmmm today went out wif honey...yipree!! i juz love honey sio much haha. hmm went for a show - The Break-up bye vaugnes and jeniffer aniston was sio nice but the endin was an unexpected one.in the end they both didnt got back together(hmmm sio sad)...but it let me learnt that i muz cherish my honey more...i wouldnt wanna lose her. i wouldnt compare her as my ex as wat she thot coz i noe i luv her fer who she ish and not fer a replacement of my ex... honey thx for being there always for me...i love ya without ya things wouldnt be sio nice afterall....hmm we was suppose to haf our dinner after the show but it was peak hour and every restuarant was sio packed.decided then to get to raffles city walk and got calamari and fried curry chicken after slackin at esplanade...meet my fren JOHN to pass him $$$ then sent honey back home. i actualli got a selfish thinkin - to occupy honey forever coz i nid her...sounds that i cant live without her but indeed i am...honey lets built a bright future and be together as long as we could live. sarang heyo
{ 2:15 am }
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