yea..seems like i'm falling in love again, or in fact to say i actually did.
i'm clueless on expressing the feelings in words.
only this statement says it all -->
Nagareru hoshi ni negai o sotto tsubuyaku, "Kimi to isshoni iraremasu youni...." aishiteru MISHA:kimochi ga tsuyoku naru to fuan no kazumo fuete yuku kara, ichido dakishimeta kokoro ha donna toki mo hanasanai de. mirai mo kimi mo dakishimeru to kono yozora ni chigau. aishiteru...
lets await ya birthday. 10 days 1 hour 38 minutes 30 seconds. PREZZIES for ya soon.
{ 9:21 pm }
suppose to have posted the day before but the damn shit webby just ruined everything... grrrr!! i typed such a long post yet the whole page of it just refreshed and gone with the wind. =( thus i was pretty irritated and annoyed to re-post again, now my mood is back so i will just try to update again.
hmmm went NUH again last friday as the pain on my right shoulder was too tremendous, it was getting unbearable after the MRI scan which i did on tuesday. was pretty afraid it might be a bone infection as the doc said it might happen. now i shall recount back to tuesday on the process of MRI scan.
it was the day of truth & "death". i was so afraid i might have to go through any surgery. right before the MRI scan, there's this process where ya have to go for the injections and flowing fluid into the bone. i was shivering throughout process. =X
i mean seeing the docs getting all kind of sizes of syringes plus preparing the medications omg. on the flowing of fluid into bone, the doc told me he cant find my shoulder joint!! it was like HUR, and WTF!! sucha tense moment and ya are scaring me with this. *faints* luckily he found it in the end and he added, " ya have a tricky joint." ---> -.-! after it shall be the MRI scan. its just a resting period of 20mins in the machine. was relaxing though kekeke.
day by day after the MRI scan, the level of pain just keep inccreasing. it was only on friday that i decided i should go back to NUH to clear my doubt. its better to be safe than nothing. it was the shortest wait i ever had as they quickly directed me to a physician as it could be a severe case => bone infection. to my surprise, i'm fine.
they told me my MRI scan result shows i'm normal. WHEEEE!!! but still i was given stacks of painkillers again. i'm just feeding on painkillers everyday. now left will be the specialist appointment on the coming tuesday. he shall clear my doubt on what causes the pain on my shoulder.
with everything fine now, i can do everything. playing piano & violin. my right arm would be back to functioning again. =)
P.S.: sorry to have made many worried. now everyone can have a relief in their mind. i'm fine now and reali thanks for the concern and care given. arigatou gozaimasu~
{ 8:16 pm }
haven been updatin bloggie. its almost 2 mths. well army days are certainly packed and busy, it just dont allow me to have time for even updates.
i gotten myslef injured....once again. i almost kept it from everyone except family or some just to not make them worry. i have been a worry to everyone as i'm unable to really prevent from getting any form of injuries or illness, not to mention that i'm a baller(basketball is one of the injury-prone sports). this time i injured during training. specialist suspected it could be a tear ligament or muscle.
seriously since i gotten injured, i have not been able to be myself. i'm just so stressed up. no encouragements, no helps, no one to turn to. i could only depend on myself. and with this it could mean i might not be able to play basketball. its such sour feeling to not being able to do anything. i wonder how long would this still goes on but one thing for sure - i'm breaking down soon. the usual standin tall and dependable alex shall be gone.... time for me to take a break. i just needed someone to depend on.
xinyi... ya are not nothing but everything to me. trust me ya can never sucks when ya are far more better than me in every areas. just like ya said once, "you will always be someone special to me." it applies to ya too and its from me to ya. i will still need ya to hold me up and let me depend on at this period of time. my ugliest and worst moment of my life.
{ 2:37 am }
i want this 
i've got this