well things often happen sio unexpectedly.even to a certain extent that everyone would be victim of the unexpected event or situation.everyone would be thinking he or she maybe the most hurt one. and of course i too felt so.regarding the problems i guess i know what's the reason down there...
sorry janice for those jokes and asking ya all those questions.i apologise for the incident on felicia's too.well there would be a supporting reason for every thoughts ya have or actions ya do so i had mine too... certain things are best kept unknown.even if it may be a lie to ya guys i dun care.anyway no matter what things may be following up thanks for being a friend down there and felicia too...as for xiangting's incident i know ya are worrying.ya will have my promise that she would not be harm or hurt in anyway...things will be as normal.
thanks for being there to share my problems, silly gal.its more than enough on the fun,excitement and laughter ya had brought.put all those as memories as ya may want it or be it to be thrown into the trash.sorry for being appearing and re-knowing ya.sorry for the habits i had let ya gotten used to.sorry for not able to share with ya everything.its best not for ya to know all about it.let it stays as a myth.a mystery to everyone forever.i would be most grateful then.

{ 2:04 pm }

walking ish inevitable to everyone everyday...we walked down the stairs, walked to bus stops or even ya walked around when work. but have ya thought walking at least more than 3km everyday? it ish happening on me and it had become a must now. lol. haha of course i wont be doing it alone. i gotta someone to walk with me and the person will be known as someone here as i'm not suppose to disclose the name. sio its for you guys outcha to find it out ba but it will never be digged out of me sio give up ya ideas if ya gonna ask me...hehe =X the walking habit had been over for at least 2weeks i guess and seems i had been sio interested and enjoying it haha... maybe ish because of ya...its sio sure that i wouldnt be enjoying a single bit if i were to walk alone but i think i wouldnt be walking anyway if i'm alone unless i felt like to or whatever reasons i may have...recently too much happened and my appearance had been much more a trouble and stress.i'm sorrie. disppearance may be a solution but it wouldnt be agreed. i'm trying to minimise the hurts and harm to me only but there isnt any good solutions that i can come up with unless i can treat ya as little better as possible.its not easy but i would try because i know it would be best to the situation [maybe i'm wrong, it maybe the worse though]. anyway let us keep things as now. let things remain. let nothing be changed. even there would be changes let it be good ones. i like the POOH, the MINI POOH...i dun care!! i'm gonna snatch it from ya or steal it haha =p or perhaps ya get one for me. find one that looks like me just as the one ya had which looks like ya totally haha =p bleahx..

{ 9:32 pm }

didnt realli know i could still meet a soul mate huh? haha well the place goes rightfully to our KOH XIANG TING!!! are ya honoured? well i guess ya dont. ya this big mature devil!! NI SI DING LE!!! haha =p I DONT CARE EVEN I"M USING WORDS FROM YA MOUTH!! coz ya used mine. nani nani poo poo...okie enough of the crapping liao. simply learned it from ya. =p wasnt even talking to each other in the past perhaps just a HI, BYE and few sentences but now we had sio much to tok and share haha. well what could i still expect huh? gotta such good mature devil as my soul mate...thanks for ya listening ear but hopefully dont turns into a rotten one from listening to me. i gotta lotsa thanks to say to ya. thanks for accompany. thanks for the advices and encouraging words ya had given me. thanks for the introduction of that green tea. thanks for being my gret soul mate. okie lets stop here sounded i'm giving the thankgiving speech. lol =x well i know ya also will have lotsa thanks to tell me too haha kidding coz i know ya wont have as much as me. we realli talked much. right from the past till now. we had realli grown up. i too found out that i changed too much. i was too shock to discover it too. unbelievable!!! lets switch to Unbelievable by Craig David lol haha learned too much crapping from ya liao lah. Ohh My Tian!!! realli hope that we can still be as good in future coz ya my soul mate will always be one...arigatou =] let me wish that more of ya As baby will come to ya. currently ya had gotten 6 of them and juz today ya gotten 2!!! congrats!! gong xi gong xi gong xi ni!!! haha sio ya muz treat me eat for celebration =p
ohh another thing ish i think i'm not far from success to change justin... at least i gotten him back to study and now he ish taking his O's. jiayou!! jiayou!! jiayou!! i know ya can do it as long as ya work hard. i also got him to work with me sio he wont be rotting at home doing nothing. he even made an effort to wake up as early as 7AM for work and travel around a 45mins journey to work!! all these ish depend on ya but ya did it!! justin well i think the rest ish up to ya but still i will help ya as much as i can. sorrie too that i often missed work recently due to some problems i had. sorrie but ya still complete the required work perfectly. my friendship with ya will last. lets pray haha =p
yesterday night i finally got through and contacted liming. sio long never see ya and chat. how could ya do that to the great friend of yours haha I'M ALEX-ANDER the GREAT!! haha sio i dont care ya owns me a treat. ya cant reject it coz its ya fault!!! well know ya are busy with ya school works and activities sio its okie... work hard wor. see ya soon plus better dont forgets me!

P.S. mature devil ya dont worry so much wor. i would be okie de but juz gotta lend me ya ear and ya leg [ to make ya walk as much as i can. haha =p] thanks...

{ 2:02 am }

well i wasnt tagged for this survey but i 'stolen' it from melody haha [ izzit copyrighted? but well I DONT CARE!! HAHA ] the survey goes likedat...

1) single, taken or crushin?-crushin.
2) are u happy with ur life now?-maybe.
3) when u meet the right person, do u fall in love fast?-hmm a good qns but well it takes time fer me to know if i love her.
4) have u ever been heart broken?- yes.lotsa.
5) Do you believe tt there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?-yeah but it realli depends on the situation well i'm been thru it befor but it will stays as a secret. =]
7) ever tok abt marriage to someone else?-Yea.but juz pure thinkin
8) Do u want childen?-maybe if i had gotten into a marriage 1st ba...
9) How many?-tat would be a future issue.
10) Would u ever consider adoption?-i guess so or perhaps maybe ba.
11) If someone likes you now, what do you tink is the best way for him/ her to let you know his/ her feelings?-err...ish depending who izzit plus wat ish the situation.
12) Do you enjoy going into relationships?-love ish blind.everyone would enjoy it.
13) Do you believe in love at first sight?-not realli.time proves it.
14) Do you believe you can change someone?-yes! and i did!!!
15) If you could married elsewhere, where would it be?-korea...japan...barcelona...
16) Do you give in easily when you're fighting?-am i the one at fault? but still i will try to give in.
17) Do you have feeling for someone right now?-yeah!
18) Have you ever wished that you could have someone but you messed it up?-yeah.messed it totally.
19) Have u ever broken a heart?-its cruel to do that by the truth ish i did...
20) If one day your best friend falls in love with the gal/ guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?-hmm fer my character i will give in but now i dont. i would ask fer a fair competition.sounded sio strange, aren't i?
21) Are you missing anyone right now?-Yes. why not? i misses sharon, xiangting, justin, liming, ivy. haha besties of my life. thanks.
22) Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.. write their names below..yeah.. and the list goes like this...

{ 1:37 am }

well i'm back again to blog.to let out news on my latest findings or even about my life...sio sure there ish tonnes of humans outcha waiting to see my latest updates haha =p tink ya all have seen the title of this post - "endings".i'm gonna put an end to everything.nonetheless ish on my relationships.hopefully it's realli the end.i'm realli tired.its finally tym to put a full stop to it.
as everyone had know about me and my current girlfriend.we both had been together for juz less than half a year, to be exact its 3months & 10days.it maybe short to everyone but the days we both had was full of happiness and laughter but of course there ish love too.i wouldnt deny that i realli felt for her.and its the truth that she was the first i realli put down my real feelings on since after Sharon.we both shared a common belief - love.we came together through this but we would not end this with this too.the love ish turning one-sided or in fact it had actually been. "give and take" but i had never felt the giving part from ya sio thus there wouldnt be any taking part for me to be in.tolerance for ya was in fact limitless but as days goes on,ya are taking me for granted,still i continue to tolerate.i was able to do it because i keep telling myself, "loving someone was to accept his/her everything sio i should be tolerating no matter how unreasonable or how much ya took me for granted."everything didnt went as what i wished for and expected. ya continued ya unreasonable doings,attitudes and everything.time and time but i gave ya and myself chances.one right after another.it still did not help.sio i guess this ish time for me to say, "thanks but goodbye."ya was loving, ya got ya gentle and cute side too but i can only say maybe i didnt realli truly love ya thats why i wasnt able to accept ya everything, sorry.and thanks too.
another part ish on Sharon.i had been holding to her for 3years(exact ish reaching 3years) coz she's still the one in my heart.never be replaced.a mistake done and i loses her forever.even fer years of waiting and repenting it never once occured that ya gave me another chance and comes back to me."2004 january 28" the day we left each other.now ish the 2006 october 11.wow i cant even believe after that long i can still holds on to ya but today i came down to this decision. it would be the last and final decision.i have decided to let ya go.i will moves on and not hold on to ya anymore.we will never be back as before,it was juz a foolish me to still holding the broken line linking us together.ya will never know how much tears i shed how much heart pains i took how much things i did but well it was juz foolish of me to do all this ba.holding on to the impossible.no matter how many people adviced me encouraged me or tried to talk me out of it i never been once gave up.even how many times ya broke my heart when i asked for ya return and forgiveness i still holds on to ya.but now i finally understands that you could never be back. i misses the feelings of holding ya hand,the hugs ya gave me, the time ya spent waiting and worrying for me.let me put an end to this.i'm not myself anymore.well thanks for being that special part of my life.its a moment of magic.thanks but i still wanna ask ya do i still the one ya always cared for as what ya said before?i will not get into any relationships as i dont want to be hurt or hurting others.i will give ya my blessings to ya and ya boyfriend. take care.

{ 3:14 am }

1. a damn good kisser? hmm shld try it b4 puttin down ya comments =p
2. of course. my life ish to haf fun and create havoc haha =X
3. nice ass? omg how nice can i haf it? lol
4. well i control my own life ya dun sio i do it in my way whee!!!

{ 1:06 pm }

better get a new post done or someone ish saying that i'm not updating haha. ya noe who i referring to =p well have been quite long since last update[actualli just 6 days],maybe people have been used to me updating and putting up new posts everyday but ya guys gotta understand me that it had been getting boring nowadays that i cant come up with anything to blog too...sio please forgive me...i will kneel down with al my sincerity haha...=X
it had been long since the feeling came up again.well though i may have been saying, "i had forgotten.i had forgotten." but nevertheless it always stays deep in me.never for once left me or perhaps i should say i had never once let go of it.some said why am i that foolish to be doing this while others said why am i still standing at the same spot and not moving on.i can lie to ya guys but i wouldnt be able to lie to myself.3 years.what a long wait but a worthwhile wait.i wouldnt mind waiting longer as long as even i can get a day.i no need forever,my wish ish just a day.if i can turn back the time i would change and not commit the mistake.just a thinking coz i noe it wouldnt happen.ya guys may be right to say i'm foolish and stupid to wait but how i wish i can give up.it had been 3 years.if it had been that easy i would have did it.thanks for ya guys to be there to comment on me too...i guess someone & feli understand what am i saying now rite? haha please dont get it all wrong...nothing to do with what ya all think everyone other than the two i mentioned...guess thats all i can say for currently sio lets hope everything got better than expected...

{ 2:46 am }

freaked on Ayumi Hamasaki, fanatic about J[ap]s & K[orean]s.
how wouldnt i be not normal as others?
eats my daily vitamins and goes toilet like every others

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