well i'm back again to blog.to let out news on my latest findings or even about my life...sio sure there ish tonnes of humans outcha waiting to see my latest updates haha =p tink ya all have seen the title of this post - "endings".i'm gonna put an end to everything.nonetheless ish on my relationships.hopefully it's realli the end.i'm realli tired.its finally tym to put a full stop to it.
as everyone had know about me and my current girlfriend.we both had been together for juz less than half a year, to be exact its 3months & 10days.it maybe short to everyone but the days we both had was full of happiness and laughter but of course there ish love too.i wouldnt deny that i realli felt for her.and its the truth that she was the first i realli put down my real feelings on since after Sharon.we both shared a common belief - love.we came together through this but we would not end this with this too.the love ish turning one-sided or in fact it had actually been. "give and take" but i had never felt the giving part from ya sio thus there wouldnt be any taking part for me to be in.tolerance for ya was in fact limitless but as days goes on,ya are taking me for granted,still i continue to tolerate.i was able to do it because i keep telling myself, "loving someone was to accept his/her everything sio i should be tolerating no matter how unreasonable or how much ya took me for granted."everything didnt went as what i wished for and expected. ya continued ya unreasonable doings,attitudes and everything.time and time but i gave ya and myself chances.one right after another.it still did not help.sio i guess this ish time for me to say, "thanks but goodbye."ya was loving, ya got ya gentle and cute side too but i can only say maybe i didnt realli truly love ya thats why i wasnt able to accept ya everything, sorry.and thanks too.
another part ish on Sharon.i had been holding to her for 3years(exact ish reaching 3years) coz she's still the one in my heart.never be replaced.a mistake done and i loses her forever.even fer years of waiting and repenting it never once occured that ya gave me another chance and comes back to me."2004 january 28" the day we left each other.now ish the 2006 october 11.wow i cant even believe after that long i can still holds on to ya but today i came down to this decision. it would be the last and final decision.i have decided to let ya go.i will moves on and not hold on to ya anymore.we will never be back as before,it was juz a foolish me to still holding the broken line linking us together.ya will never know how much tears i shed how much heart pains i took how much things i did but well it was juz foolish of me to do all this ba.holding on to the impossible.no matter how many people adviced me encouraged me or tried to talk me out of it i never been once gave up.even how many times ya broke my heart when i asked for ya return and forgiveness i still holds on to ya.but now i finally understands that you could never be back. i misses the feelings of holding ya hand,the hugs ya gave me, the time ya spent waiting and worrying for me.let me put an end to this.i'm not myself anymore.well thanks for being that special part of my life.its a moment of magic.thanks but i still wanna ask ya do i still the one ya always cared for as what ya said before?i will not get into any relationships as i dont want to be hurt or hurting others.i will give ya my blessings to ya and ya boyfriend. take care.
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